For some reason, it's only just occurred to me to look up social anxiety. After hearing about the comparisons, the minimization, all of that, I actually looked up what it was. The scary and comforting thing is, is that I relate to that a lot. Who knew there was an actual name for the fear I feel when presented with social situations? But on top of that, I'm afraid of what that says about me. I've been thinking that autism was the one thing that could explain why I felt different and pushed away from other people among other things, but what if it's not? Was I imagining all of my experiences? What if all of it's actually just social anxiety? I'm confused and will do more research. Also, talk to my school's therapist.
Addition after the fact (10 minutes after I originally typed): I need to look more into comorbidities!!!! I didn't think that was a thing applicable to me!!
Addition after the fact (10 minutes after I originally typed): I need to look more into comorbidities!!!! I didn't think that was a thing applicable to me!!