Angry, lonely misery guts

Wow, me, too! Midlife crisis, perhaps? After my daughter was diagnosed, I feel as if a veil was lifted and I see my whole past in a new light. I've been spending the past few years in frenzied contemplation and reassessment of it all. Sometimes I feel my head will explode!! All in all it has been a good thing. At least I'm not confused (as much) anymore! However, I know what you mean by the anger. I feel like I need to compensate for being so naive in the past and so much of a doormat. It has caused me to make some bad mistakes, the compensation. I feel like I had over corrected when learning how to drive! I Try now to temper my responses to people's ********, as it can be a set up.... I realize that I'm ill equipped to play politics/power games, but I have studied it in a small attempt to not be manipulated in other ways. I'm sure I have more to learn! I also don't want to do anything (else) that I'm ashamed of. In a way, I miss my naivete, life was simpler then, but I'm proud of my newfound wisdom, and even though it's painful, I don't want to throw it back. Good luck to you, my heart goes out to you. I hope you live well .