I had a meltdown last night. I haven't had one for years. I think it might have been a combination of the stress from Monday, the anticipated anxiety of today, and my 4-year-old screaming for lemonade for the last 20 minutes straight even though he had milk and water and we were riding in the car and I had no way to provide lemonade at the moment. He couldn't wait until we got in the house, and I was trying to back into our narrow little garage on a busy street before the next wave of traffic came (if I don't back in, it is very hard to get out again). So I started screaming too and had to go lock myself in the bedroom once we were inside.
I'm still pretty brittle this morning and I'm not sure how I'm going to handle today. My boss is sending me to an all-day training session. Training at my work always involves group work and making presentations in front of the room, no matter what the subject is. Usually, I can take a couple of days before to mentally prepare and can get through it, but I'm in such a state right now, that I dont think I can do it.
My boss doesn't believe I have anxiety issues. Last time I brought it up, she laughed and acted like I was joking. Yet she puts on all my performance reviews, which go onto my permanent work record, so anyone I try to interview with within the company can see it, that I need to work on my interpersonal skills. So I'm going to have a very hard time escaping from her (she's intolerable in othet ways too).
I'm on my way to it right now and trying to de-stress.
Just for the record, I am writing this on my phone, while on a moving tram, so I'm not able to re-read and re-edit as much as usual. So sorry for any errors or bad writing.
I'm still pretty brittle this morning and I'm not sure how I'm going to handle today. My boss is sending me to an all-day training session. Training at my work always involves group work and making presentations in front of the room, no matter what the subject is. Usually, I can take a couple of days before to mentally prepare and can get through it, but I'm in such a state right now, that I dont think I can do it.
My boss doesn't believe I have anxiety issues. Last time I brought it up, she laughed and acted like I was joking. Yet she puts on all my performance reviews, which go onto my permanent work record, so anyone I try to interview with within the company can see it, that I need to work on my interpersonal skills. So I'm going to have a very hard time escaping from her (she's intolerable in othet ways too).
I'm on my way to it right now and trying to de-stress.
Just for the record, I am writing this on my phone, while on a moving tram, so I'm not able to re-read and re-edit as much as usual. So sorry for any errors or bad writing.
