I mean to blog as often as possible to try and document my thoughts so maybe I can get to the bottom of some of the troubles in life. That and it'll stop people looking at me funny when they catch me talking to myself! Buut I've been busy as all hell lately what with uni, housework and generally chaotic life. On the plus side, university finishes tomorrow afternoon (HUZZAH!). On the downside, I've been stimming and SIBing like a crazy person today. Although I have been tonic-clonic seizure free for almost 3 months now, even though I'm still having partials and myoclonic jerks occasionally. Touch-wood I won't type this then have a seizure-fest tonight. That would just be typical...
Gavin's been an angel lately. And I mean an angel. Because I've been an utter shite. Aggressive, moody, stressed - and all directed to him for no good reason. And he's just taken it on the chin (literally on one occasion when I had a particularly nasty meltdown) and comforted me, hugged me when I asked for it, reasoned with me when I was being unreasonable and let me get it out of my system. I think it's because I miss the kids. I can't believe it's been 5 months since I last saw Evie, and 4 months since I saw Harley. Or it could be all the changes that have happened this last few weeks; two of my housemates moving in then moving out again, the house moving around a lot, changes in Gav's work schedule, no idea. But I seem to be getting used to the idea of living with his shift rota, and once the holidays start things should be a lot more stable.
Hope everybody's doing good, love you all xx
Gavin's been an angel lately. And I mean an angel. Because I've been an utter shite. Aggressive, moody, stressed - and all directed to him for no good reason. And he's just taken it on the chin (literally on one occasion when I had a particularly nasty meltdown) and comforted me, hugged me when I asked for it, reasoned with me when I was being unreasonable and let me get it out of my system. I think it's because I miss the kids. I can't believe it's been 5 months since I last saw Evie, and 4 months since I saw Harley. Or it could be all the changes that have happened this last few weeks; two of my housemates moving in then moving out again, the house moving around a lot, changes in Gav's work schedule, no idea. But I seem to be getting used to the idea of living with his shift rota, and once the holidays start things should be a lot more stable.
Hope everybody's doing good, love you all xx
