If you had asked me a year ago if I would be in a healthy, committed relationship with someone who both loves and supports me by today's date, my answer would've been a loud no. It's been a long time coming. It still feels a bit like I've made all of this happiness up, like I am still sitting on the sidelines waiting for my life to start. It feels like I must be dreaming all of this happiness, because how else could it possibly be happening to me? I'd been miserable for so long.
That said, it isn't all cherries and whipped cream. There have been some tough bits, and I suppose it would be unrealistic of me to think that there would ever come a time in my life when I wouldn't have challenges. The difference is that now I have someone who is on my side and who is holding my hand and helping me through the rough bits. It's really pretty awesome, and I'm so grateful that I didn't give up.
Now I can hope again. I can dream again. And, perhaps the hugest thing of all--- I'm finally writing again. Since writing is my outlet and my most favorite thing to do, it's enormous that I am finally able to do it again, that I'm finally able to express myself without fear of the repercussions and the inevitable nuclear fallout.
That said, it isn't all cherries and whipped cream. There have been some tough bits, and I suppose it would be unrealistic of me to think that there would ever come a time in my life when I wouldn't have challenges. The difference is that now I have someone who is on my side and who is holding my hand and helping me through the rough bits. It's really pretty awesome, and I'm so grateful that I didn't give up.
Now I can hope again. I can dream again. And, perhaps the hugest thing of all--- I'm finally writing again. Since writing is my outlet and my most favorite thing to do, it's enormous that I am finally able to do it again, that I'm finally able to express myself without fear of the repercussions and the inevitable nuclear fallout.
