I found my first gray hair today. I'm turning 31 in a few days. And today's the day I'm going back to university. After dropping out due to depression for the umpteenth time two years ago, I never thought this day would come, yet here it is.
To say I'm nervous is an understatement. I had a fitful night full of weird dreams (including Optimus Prime, who apparently has a personal vendetta against me, turning into a cab and driving me far far away from my university building instead of towards it). I woke up at 3 AM unable to sleep any more. My stomach is churning, my heart is racing. In 2 hours I will have to take a test to prove that I possess the necessary knowledge to graduate as an M.D. I know I easily passed this test three years ago, but that was when I was still fully submerged in the medical world. I've studied for this test, but is it enough? Somehow it never feels like enough.
I pondered starting a blog before, but I felt today would be a good day. Today has the potential to be a turning point in my life (although, to be fair, every day does, doesn't it?) and I'm taking the plunge full of hope (and a smidgen of terror). I hope this blog will have more hope and less terror in the following posts. This is as much a personal journal for me to process the events about to happen as it is a blog, but I hope whomever reads this gets some laughs and positive vibes from it anyway.
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To say I'm nervous is an understatement. I had a fitful night full of weird dreams (including Optimus Prime, who apparently has a personal vendetta against me, turning into a cab and driving me far far away from my university building instead of towards it). I woke up at 3 AM unable to sleep any more. My stomach is churning, my heart is racing. In 2 hours I will have to take a test to prove that I possess the necessary knowledge to graduate as an M.D. I know I easily passed this test three years ago, but that was when I was still fully submerged in the medical world. I've studied for this test, but is it enough? Somehow it never feels like enough.
I pondered starting a blog before, but I felt today would be a good day. Today has the potential to be a turning point in my life (although, to be fair, every day does, doesn't it?) and I'm taking the plunge full of hope (and a smidgen of terror). I hope this blog will have more hope and less terror in the following posts. This is as much a personal journal for me to process the events about to happen as it is a blog, but I hope whomever reads this gets some laughs and positive vibes from it anyway.
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Time for another...