Waking in the middle of the night is confusing for me. Things that seem so certain during the daylight hours feel twisted and shadowed. Sometimes even the most simple and good things seem darkened and scary at nighttime. I don't like it.
I guess the easy answer seems to be to stay in bed and not get up in the middle of the night. The easy answer would be to sleep straight through, right? If only it were that easy. Often, I wake up because I need to go to the bathroom and also because I'm hungry. Even if I use the bathroom before bed and have a light snack before bed, I still wake up needing to use the bathroom and then have something else to eat. It's frustrating and disorienting. The bit that is the worst, however, is how much it makes me doubt things that I'm certain of during daylight hours.
I don't know what, if anything, I can do to make the nighttime hours less scary and uncertain. Perhaps there's a nighttime routine of some sort that I can adopt that will help me settle down and keep me from freaking out when I wake up in the middle of the night. Night has always been hard for me. I have almost always felt on edge and lost and confused and oftentimes also quite scared.
Perhaps music would help. Perhaps a glass of cold chocolate milk would help. Perhaps it would help to turn a light on beside the bed. I feel a little lost and confused, and even though I have excellent support from my partner, when it is dark out and he is asleep, I feel like I am facing the world alone. I get so scared then, and I can't shake the fear. It's like living a nightmare, and it needs to stop.
I guess the easy answer seems to be to stay in bed and not get up in the middle of the night. The easy answer would be to sleep straight through, right? If only it were that easy. Often, I wake up because I need to go to the bathroom and also because I'm hungry. Even if I use the bathroom before bed and have a light snack before bed, I still wake up needing to use the bathroom and then have something else to eat. It's frustrating and disorienting. The bit that is the worst, however, is how much it makes me doubt things that I'm certain of during daylight hours.
I don't know what, if anything, I can do to make the nighttime hours less scary and uncertain. Perhaps there's a nighttime routine of some sort that I can adopt that will help me settle down and keep me from freaking out when I wake up in the middle of the night. Night has always been hard for me. I have almost always felt on edge and lost and confused and oftentimes also quite scared.
Perhaps music would help. Perhaps a glass of cold chocolate milk would help. Perhaps it would help to turn a light on beside the bed. I feel a little lost and confused, and even though I have excellent support from my partner, when it is dark out and he is asleep, I feel like I am facing the world alone. I get so scared then, and I can't shake the fear. It's like living a nightmare, and it needs to stop.
