I understand that autism is simply your condition when you are not neurotypical. But I am willing to own autism as a form of disability. One example: I like to do laps at the pool but prefer to go when it is not too crowded. As such, I select times when there are relatively few people (not easy in metropolitan Sydney). If I go and there are more people than I expect at that time, I can get anxious and less likely to go - after all, there should not have been all those people at the pool when I wanted to swim. I know that sort of rigid mindset does not make me happy but unfortunately, it is part of my disability. I believe I need to recognise there is a problem rather than deny it.