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Lost

  • Author Author Xinyta
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I am without many words lately. Confused once more about how to continue. I have answers to my own behaviors. Yet I am lost to what is next.

I can focus. Yet I still have issues with it, which remains to confuse me. I know, yet the desire to try isn't always there. Making me question why? Why is the desire to do things such a difficult thing for me allow? To accept.

I feel as if I am trying to push back against a wall of rubber. That bends but refuses to break. This old mindset is obstinate to me trying to be or do anything that opposes it.

But I keep trying anyway. To cut through this wall of rubber. Though the one thing it feels the most adamant to block out is me ever being happy.

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blue_bird
It's difficult when you're caught between wanting to improve - which means self analysis, and wanting to let go - which means no analysing of anything.
 
Xinyta
@plushy That has a multi faceted answer. Though the long and short of it is that I've, in one way or another, embraced the darkness. Just not outwardly shown it in appearance.
 

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