I don't know how to put this,
I love my wife and child more than anything and anyone on this planet. and I would never do anything to hurt them and that is my problem!
how do I hate myself and love someone else at the same time? Everynight, I ask to be be taken away, to be forgotten, to not wake up in the morning... maybe I'm just a week person that can't face life and does not have the energy to take a step forward. I cry almost every night, And I'm a grown man! I'm not supposed to do that, at least that is how I was raised!!! No ofence to anyone when I say this, please understand that I was raised to be tough and not to believe in mental illness, just in weekness.!!! My wife won't touch me because I'm sick (as she calls it) and can't come to see me as a sexual partner... I dont blame her but it is frustrating...
ever since I can remember, I've prayed to whatever is out there, whatever highter power to take me in my sleep because I'm too much of a week pwerson to do it myself!
I hate myself and wish I was not here, but at the same time, what about my wife and daughter?
I know my wife would have men after her before I was barried as she is the best person I know and she constantly gets hit on by men. but my doughter, recognises me now, maybe a year ago would have been ok but i was too much of a wimp to take it like a man (as they say)...
I've attemped to take my life twice in my early teens, obviously failed... dont know why because i took enough pills to take out anyone i know!!! but I am still here. My liver is healed after such blowes to it.
I don't know what to do, what am I supposed to to, I'm tired, I'm exhausted, I'm suicidal again...
thoughts are flooding my mind contantly and I have not had a good night sleep as far back as I can remember. I have not planned anything yet but i do believce my wife and child would be better off without me. I'm causing them more worry and pain than I should.
Help me! if there is anyone out there who can!
I'm seeing a Psychologist, Psychiatrist, and 2 GP's and I'm taking so many pills that I can't even start to tell you what they are for.
Don't help me, help my wife and child!
I love my wife and child more than anything and anyone on this planet. and I would never do anything to hurt them and that is my problem!
how do I hate myself and love someone else at the same time? Everynight, I ask to be be taken away, to be forgotten, to not wake up in the morning... maybe I'm just a week person that can't face life and does not have the energy to take a step forward. I cry almost every night, And I'm a grown man! I'm not supposed to do that, at least that is how I was raised!!! No ofence to anyone when I say this, please understand that I was raised to be tough and not to believe in mental illness, just in weekness.!!! My wife won't touch me because I'm sick (as she calls it) and can't come to see me as a sexual partner... I dont blame her but it is frustrating...
ever since I can remember, I've prayed to whatever is out there, whatever highter power to take me in my sleep because I'm too much of a week pwerson to do it myself!
I hate myself and wish I was not here, but at the same time, what about my wife and daughter?
I know my wife would have men after her before I was barried as she is the best person I know and she constantly gets hit on by men. but my doughter, recognises me now, maybe a year ago would have been ok but i was too much of a wimp to take it like a man (as they say)...
I've attemped to take my life twice in my early teens, obviously failed... dont know why because i took enough pills to take out anyone i know!!! but I am still here. My liver is healed after such blowes to it.
I don't know what to do, what am I supposed to to, I'm tired, I'm exhausted, I'm suicidal again...
thoughts are flooding my mind contantly and I have not had a good night sleep as far back as I can remember. I have not planned anything yet but i do believce my wife and child would be better off without me. I'm causing them more worry and pain than I should.
Help me! if there is anyone out there who can!
I'm seeing a Psychologist, Psychiatrist, and 2 GP's and I'm taking so many pills that I can't even start to tell you what they are for.
Don't help me, help my wife and child!