Ever felt like giving up in life because of what has happened in the past or have something that is dragging you down?
From when I was younger, I was a kid with so much dreams and imaginations that it got to the point where I was known as the weird kid and getting bullied was the downside of it.
From when I was diagnosed, things just went downhill for me, I was more attracted to getting bullied, I was getting treated as if I had a really low IQ to begin but at the same time was able to finish school with a good success.
Going secondary school was the worst thing I have ever done, this was the point for me when everythng just literally went downhill and my dreams were rapidly deteriorating to the point I became literally clueless.
I got struck with depression at the age of 16 when I was a victim of even more bullying and I would just get it everytime I would just walk into a classroom, it would be like walking into a room full of crazy people.
My grades started going downhill and my performance became literally pointless and I thought at the time, there is no way on earth that there will be hope, I even used to have suicidal thoughts, even now I still feel like that and I would just feel like to the point I just would black out.
Things got better for me a year later and managed to get lucky with girlfriends but unfortunately that also went downhill and I never knew how badly I would fail at this and there was this one girl who I really liked and dated, that went so well but as soon as god knows how long later, she ended up finding another guy and that left me feeling very heartbroken.
Leaving school was like a reflection of what happened in the past and I knew that the reality is that, all the teachers would really care about is Money and getting things over and done without any enthusiasm, it just seems so pointless and a complete waste of my school life. What's worse was that it was a special school.
The school was great to start with though and I was so fortunately to have gotten some friends.
Going to college was a tough beginning, I never knew how to go places independently, I never knew how to cook, and what made matters worse was, I've always been afraid to do these things.
So I eventually had to teach myself all these things which took months of intense training for myself and my first course was obviously a special needs course which imo I thought it wasn't even necessary.
All these training really took off and it eventually worked but I then got myself hanging with the wrong crowd and I eventually nearly got to the point of actually nearly getting kicked out of the college because my behaviour was pretty bad and I acted like this for a good while just to fit in.
Then all off this got turned around when I got told that I definitely have a future ahead of me, I had the great potentials to succeed and to not let anybody keep a control of me and be myself.
From that point, I obviously turned my life around and slowly I started gaining more and more confidence, I became more of myself, I became the guy who looks like they wanted to succeed.
I then recently started having visions of my future slowly getting there bit by bit that I felt so confident that I gotten to the point where now I can imagine again and my true imaginations that I had as a kid has returned, I became more of a genuine guy that I was suppose to be, I actually found out that I actually have humour and I have found out that I'm a sweetheart.
Then there is this new person who felt like she was pretty much in the same position as I was when I first started college but obviously her's sounded better than me.
The thing that really shocked me was that I actually made her feel so welcome, I made her feel like she belongs and being told that was one of the most beautiful things I have ever been told, a hero of all kinds.
We even gotten to getting as close as really good friends and that's what amazed me, what was even better was she was also genuine like me, it's like in a short space of time, I've literally brought happiness on another person.
I'm still heading towards my future with more confidence and I haven't been bullied for a pretty good while now and probably never will because I won't let it happen.
But guys, there is always hope in the end, if you believe hard enough, then the chances are that it will happen and one thing you should never do is to give up and be yourself.
I still have my depressing moments once and a while but I do try to bring myself back up again and again keep going forward.
Stay blessed.
- superboyian.
From when I was younger, I was a kid with so much dreams and imaginations that it got to the point where I was known as the weird kid and getting bullied was the downside of it.
From when I was diagnosed, things just went downhill for me, I was more attracted to getting bullied, I was getting treated as if I had a really low IQ to begin but at the same time was able to finish school with a good success.
Going secondary school was the worst thing I have ever done, this was the point for me when everythng just literally went downhill and my dreams were rapidly deteriorating to the point I became literally clueless.
I got struck with depression at the age of 16 when I was a victim of even more bullying and I would just get it everytime I would just walk into a classroom, it would be like walking into a room full of crazy people.
My grades started going downhill and my performance became literally pointless and I thought at the time, there is no way on earth that there will be hope, I even used to have suicidal thoughts, even now I still feel like that and I would just feel like to the point I just would black out.
Things got better for me a year later and managed to get lucky with girlfriends but unfortunately that also went downhill and I never knew how badly I would fail at this and there was this one girl who I really liked and dated, that went so well but as soon as god knows how long later, she ended up finding another guy and that left me feeling very heartbroken.
Leaving school was like a reflection of what happened in the past and I knew that the reality is that, all the teachers would really care about is Money and getting things over and done without any enthusiasm, it just seems so pointless and a complete waste of my school life. What's worse was that it was a special school.
The school was great to start with though and I was so fortunately to have gotten some friends.
Going to college was a tough beginning, I never knew how to go places independently, I never knew how to cook, and what made matters worse was, I've always been afraid to do these things.
So I eventually had to teach myself all these things which took months of intense training for myself and my first course was obviously a special needs course which imo I thought it wasn't even necessary.
All these training really took off and it eventually worked but I then got myself hanging with the wrong crowd and I eventually nearly got to the point of actually nearly getting kicked out of the college because my behaviour was pretty bad and I acted like this for a good while just to fit in.
Then all off this got turned around when I got told that I definitely have a future ahead of me, I had the great potentials to succeed and to not let anybody keep a control of me and be myself.
From that point, I obviously turned my life around and slowly I started gaining more and more confidence, I became more of myself, I became the guy who looks like they wanted to succeed.
I then recently started having visions of my future slowly getting there bit by bit that I felt so confident that I gotten to the point where now I can imagine again and my true imaginations that I had as a kid has returned, I became more of a genuine guy that I was suppose to be, I actually found out that I actually have humour and I have found out that I'm a sweetheart.
Then there is this new person who felt like she was pretty much in the same position as I was when I first started college but obviously her's sounded better than me.
The thing that really shocked me was that I actually made her feel so welcome, I made her feel like she belongs and being told that was one of the most beautiful things I have ever been told, a hero of all kinds.
We even gotten to getting as close as really good friends and that's what amazed me, what was even better was she was also genuine like me, it's like in a short space of time, I've literally brought happiness on another person.
I'm still heading towards my future with more confidence and I haven't been bullied for a pretty good while now and probably never will because I won't let it happen.
But guys, there is always hope in the end, if you believe hard enough, then the chances are that it will happen and one thing you should never do is to give up and be yourself.
I still have my depressing moments once and a while but I do try to bring myself back up again and again keep going forward.
Stay blessed.
- superboyian.
