Several months ago, I would have told you that any given moment I couldn't tell you what I was feeling. I couldn't access any sense of feeling anything in particular. Over the past 4 days, I have been able to access my feelings - and it's always some form of anxiety. I even wake up with it. I started exploring this feeling by giving voice to it in my head - in my mind, screaming, shrieking, yelling out what I was thinking and feeling, chanting it over and over again in any number of voices/styles. That helped ground me, it seemed - but the feelings didn't really go away. This morning I began wondering if it is just generalized anxiety, a constant fight/flight response - it's not simply in reaction to a specific thing, unless that specific thing is my entire life with ASD in an NT world. Temple Grandin says many with ASD can benefit from a low dose anti-anxiety medication.....I don't know if I should get on one (again, I have done it in the past) or try to utilize this newly accessed well of feeling to focus on improving my life with with strategies that address the anxiety in general and any areas of anxiety.