Today was hard, my day started at 4am for no other reason than I was anxious and well it didn’t get much better from here.
At abut 10am my Aunt came and took us all to the airport in the car ride there I almost cried (1) so that was fun, we got to the airport and checked in out bags that was all fine and dandy. We sat and chatted for a bit and I showed my younger cousin the plane she was pretty excited a while later they left and when my cousin gave me a hug I almost cried again (2). I was probably most anxious about the plane yesterday not like the fact that it might fall to the earth and I will die, because at this point I am very okay with dying as long as it’s not by my doing we are good, I was scared because last time I went on a plane it was noisy and overwhelming and I almost had a meltdown next to some random man, but the flight went well and I took lots of pictures that I will post when I get some wifi. The plane ride was an hour and 40mins ish and it went fine but there was this lady behind us that kept yelling at her baby to go to sleep or drink milk as if the baby would listen.
We arrived in Christchurch and got our bags then found a taxi. We took the taxi to the people which we have hired the camper van we are staying in for the next week from I do believe I almost cried then too (3). It took a while to get the camper van sorted out and leave but the lady had a really cute dog that I made friends with and had cuddles with and I believe I have a photo of that too.
We got the campervan and headed to the supermarket because food is a priority right, the supermarket was busy and overwhelming it being New Years Eve and all, everyone was a bit tired from the flight and we all hadn’t eaten since breakfast and by this point it was about 3pm I made comment on this and Dad snapped at me so I almost cried again (4). Checking out at the supermarket was a lol mum and dad where struggling doing the self-serve thing and the lady kept having to come over and help us, this frustrated my younger sister a lot.
Back in the camper van and headed for the night camping place went well we are at a massive camp ground which is close but a decent distance from the beach which we went for a walk to go see it was nice the tide was way way out and we didn’t stay long coz it was kinda cold.
We came back to the camper van and had dinner which consisted of supermarket cooked chicken bread and a pre-made salad it was very average but it was food. After dinner we went for a walk I was really struggling quite a lot by this point and had almost cried like another 2 time (5,6) on this walk I was messaging my friend who lives in Christchurch and he offered to come for a visit so he came and we talked and I almost cried again (7) and then I did cry (8) because this is really hard and I would really like to be at home where I feel safe and comfortable and I just wanna be at home. We talked for a while and then it go dark so he had to leave and I had to come back to the camper van and go to bed I cried like at least twice (9,10) before I went to sleep so all up we are at a total of almost crying or crying 10 times……at least that’s a good number right.
Well I guess we just hope today is better and I cry less times I’m not sure how that’s gonna go though. Yesterday did actually go alright like better than I expected it too I was just very overwhelmed and anxious and it is what it is right.
Zoe
(For those who don’t know I live in the Waikato in the North Island of New Zealand)
At abut 10am my Aunt came and took us all to the airport in the car ride there I almost cried (1) so that was fun, we got to the airport and checked in out bags that was all fine and dandy. We sat and chatted for a bit and I showed my younger cousin the plane she was pretty excited a while later they left and when my cousin gave me a hug I almost cried again (2). I was probably most anxious about the plane yesterday not like the fact that it might fall to the earth and I will die, because at this point I am very okay with dying as long as it’s not by my doing we are good, I was scared because last time I went on a plane it was noisy and overwhelming and I almost had a meltdown next to some random man, but the flight went well and I took lots of pictures that I will post when I get some wifi. The plane ride was an hour and 40mins ish and it went fine but there was this lady behind us that kept yelling at her baby to go to sleep or drink milk as if the baby would listen.
We arrived in Christchurch and got our bags then found a taxi. We took the taxi to the people which we have hired the camper van we are staying in for the next week from I do believe I almost cried then too (3). It took a while to get the camper van sorted out and leave but the lady had a really cute dog that I made friends with and had cuddles with and I believe I have a photo of that too.
We got the campervan and headed to the supermarket because food is a priority right, the supermarket was busy and overwhelming it being New Years Eve and all, everyone was a bit tired from the flight and we all hadn’t eaten since breakfast and by this point it was about 3pm I made comment on this and Dad snapped at me so I almost cried again (4). Checking out at the supermarket was a lol mum and dad where struggling doing the self-serve thing and the lady kept having to come over and help us, this frustrated my younger sister a lot.
Back in the camper van and headed for the night camping place went well we are at a massive camp ground which is close but a decent distance from the beach which we went for a walk to go see it was nice the tide was way way out and we didn’t stay long coz it was kinda cold.
We came back to the camper van and had dinner which consisted of supermarket cooked chicken bread and a pre-made salad it was very average but it was food. After dinner we went for a walk I was really struggling quite a lot by this point and had almost cried like another 2 time (5,6) on this walk I was messaging my friend who lives in Christchurch and he offered to come for a visit so he came and we talked and I almost cried again (7) and then I did cry (8) because this is really hard and I would really like to be at home where I feel safe and comfortable and I just wanna be at home. We talked for a while and then it go dark so he had to leave and I had to come back to the camper van and go to bed I cried like at least twice (9,10) before I went to sleep so all up we are at a total of almost crying or crying 10 times……at least that’s a good number right.
Well I guess we just hope today is better and I cry less times I’m not sure how that’s gonna go though. Yesterday did actually go alright like better than I expected it too I was just very overwhelmed and anxious and it is what it is right.
Zoe
(For those who don’t know I live in the Waikato in the North Island of New Zealand)
