In the diagnosis i got some almost 2 years ago the main reasons for the dignoes was my sensory issues; sudden noises from asholey neighbors, that idont lie the sun ligt i have my windows covered in my apartment, and did the same im my room when i live at "home" a long time ago, tv brightness/gamma sometimes give me headaches or worsen them (this could ofc be migraine)
It also ses in the diagnoses document that i have fixed/narrow interests wich i don't agree on at all and don't understand where they got that from...
The sensory issue feels very relative, the reason i cover my windows doesn't feel like a big thing but i like it alot more like that.
The tv gama/ligt which only happens from time to time could be migraine as sed befor.
The issue with my nigburs could be that they should be the ones living in the forest if they are gonna be such a a disturbing asholes. My anxiety is ofc a part of this lest sensory problem, after being disturbed a lot several times in a row, having to change apartments it does not any longer take much to activate this sensory problem.i do have some problem with cloths but it's not "life defining" like the noise question.
Then thare is my social/socialising problems which can are i wod say alot of social anxiety.
okej, so to the main question, the social one,which is more complex/diffus.
I dont have any problems understanding irony,sarcasm underlying meaning/non literal meaning and nonverbal communication.
I may express a lot less feelings and nonverbal communication towards others my self, i have at least been told that.
But when i get suckt in a social situation it's like i'm some sort of addictive,gullible, socially absorbent sponge that forgets "everything" else, i can keep taking about the same topic (even if not in a to limited wey) with others for a long time and if i dont get a signal that they are not interested i just go on, i forget that i know by fact that many people might fake interest to be polite (and with that i mean really faking it, not just not saying upfront "ur boring me" or that they stop contributing to the conversationor looking bored) this is sort of close to (the same effect at least) not understanding signals or that the general long term social logic is turned off within me.
In this "social sponge stage" im sort enjoying it so much that i forget that the contrapart might not be amused,another version or variation of this is that if someone ses to me just to be polite or nice something positive i overinterpret it, not that i automatically think this someone is inlove w me but i have problems (close to can't at all) distinguishing when people really mean it and wen they are just being polite, i have lenrd by experiens to distinguishs , but in the situation i still make the mistake.Or if some ses: ow ur art is so gr8 i have some art m8s i might talk to and i may get an expedition/or part in one for your art, and my brain belies it as if this is probably gonna happen (at least the part where that individuals follows true on wot he/she sed and asks the m8s, and that i might get the exhibition or whatever) even if i learned that people might say that to be nice or even meen it in that specific instance but for a diversity of reason never follow thru.
Another stranger thing is that if i say talk to someone at the same time as im... let's say following her/him to its apartment,i will afterword never remember what we we went, and it's in this case not that i don't care because i getting help, it's like my "social sponge" blocks the geografic information intake/can't focus on other the the social interaction.
And then one that led to the category on my diagnosis that has to do with this "social sponge" thing: i need to be by myself some weaken hours a day (i need to be alone at night to but that wasn't the pointe) and or incuding "+" 1-2 days a week. i didn't notice this factor until i moved from "home". When i live with people which i almost can't anymore it's like my "social sponge"/or the "ready for social interaction" function in my brain is on standby 24h/day (even if i'm not interacting, being in the same apartment/place does it) that gets me stressed,restless and a strong feeling of losing myself(a term wich is hard to axeplain for me at lest) so i need to be by myself, i need to live alone. I can be social mot of the days, or for 2-3 days in a row full time before this feeling is intense inuf, and the "social sponge" that at the first hours and day wanted more and more is now drowining, so i'm at the opposite sitation and im emotionaly exosted, lost myself so on,i need to be by my self turn off the cellphone and more (i have ofc no m8s now so that really happens now)
I also have social phobia , that is a part of this and makes it hard for me to distingues on one diagnosis from the other for me, i can easily feel rejected both offline/irl or online, it's sometimes hard online sens i don't know if lets say an fb post is ignored or there is some other reason for lack of reaction , my speculations and fear/anxiety of having made a fool of myself or being ignored for that reason does the fking trick pretty fast, it's easier irl in that way when i at least know if the other person(s) is ignoring me.
My "social sponge" cud be explained that way, the fear of rejection the "need" for social confirmation and overinterpretation of the opposite.... the over focusing on the social that sabotages other abilities like remembering a geographic wey cos of normal social interaction and forgetting normal learned social logik altso sound like not only social phobia/anxiety. I simply dont know.
It also ses in the diagnoses document that i have fixed/narrow interests wich i don't agree on at all and don't understand where they got that from...
The sensory issue feels very relative, the reason i cover my windows doesn't feel like a big thing but i like it alot more like that.
The tv gama/ligt which only happens from time to time could be migraine as sed befor.
The issue with my nigburs could be that they should be the ones living in the forest if they are gonna be such a a disturbing asholes. My anxiety is ofc a part of this lest sensory problem, after being disturbed a lot several times in a row, having to change apartments it does not any longer take much to activate this sensory problem.i do have some problem with cloths but it's not "life defining" like the noise question.
Then thare is my social/socialising problems which can are i wod say alot of social anxiety.
okej, so to the main question, the social one,which is more complex/diffus.
I dont have any problems understanding irony,sarcasm underlying meaning/non literal meaning and nonverbal communication.
I may express a lot less feelings and nonverbal communication towards others my self, i have at least been told that.
But when i get suckt in a social situation it's like i'm some sort of addictive,gullible, socially absorbent sponge that forgets "everything" else, i can keep taking about the same topic (even if not in a to limited wey) with others for a long time and if i dont get a signal that they are not interested i just go on, i forget that i know by fact that many people might fake interest to be polite (and with that i mean really faking it, not just not saying upfront "ur boring me" or that they stop contributing to the conversationor looking bored) this is sort of close to (the same effect at least) not understanding signals or that the general long term social logic is turned off within me.
In this "social sponge stage" im sort enjoying it so much that i forget that the contrapart might not be amused,another version or variation of this is that if someone ses to me just to be polite or nice something positive i overinterpret it, not that i automatically think this someone is inlove w me but i have problems (close to can't at all) distinguishing when people really mean it and wen they are just being polite, i have lenrd by experiens to distinguishs , but in the situation i still make the mistake.Or if some ses: ow ur art is so gr8 i have some art m8s i might talk to and i may get an expedition/or part in one for your art, and my brain belies it as if this is probably gonna happen (at least the part where that individuals follows true on wot he/she sed and asks the m8s, and that i might get the exhibition or whatever) even if i learned that people might say that to be nice or even meen it in that specific instance but for a diversity of reason never follow thru.
Another stranger thing is that if i say talk to someone at the same time as im... let's say following her/him to its apartment,i will afterword never remember what we we went, and it's in this case not that i don't care because i getting help, it's like my "social sponge" blocks the geografic information intake/can't focus on other the the social interaction.
And then one that led to the category on my diagnosis that has to do with this "social sponge" thing: i need to be by myself some weaken hours a day (i need to be alone at night to but that wasn't the pointe) and or incuding "+" 1-2 days a week. i didn't notice this factor until i moved from "home". When i live with people which i almost can't anymore it's like my "social sponge"/or the "ready for social interaction" function in my brain is on standby 24h/day (even if i'm not interacting, being in the same apartment/place does it) that gets me stressed,restless and a strong feeling of losing myself(a term wich is hard to axeplain for me at lest) so i need to be by myself, i need to live alone. I can be social mot of the days, or for 2-3 days in a row full time before this feeling is intense inuf, and the "social sponge" that at the first hours and day wanted more and more is now drowining, so i'm at the opposite sitation and im emotionaly exosted, lost myself so on,i need to be by my self turn off the cellphone and more (i have ofc no m8s now so that really happens now)
I also have social phobia , that is a part of this and makes it hard for me to distingues on one diagnosis from the other for me, i can easily feel rejected both offline/irl or online, it's sometimes hard online sens i don't know if lets say an fb post is ignored or there is some other reason for lack of reaction , my speculations and fear/anxiety of having made a fool of myself or being ignored for that reason does the fking trick pretty fast, it's easier irl in that way when i at least know if the other person(s) is ignoring me.
My "social sponge" cud be explained that way, the fear of rejection the "need" for social confirmation and overinterpretation of the opposite.... the over focusing on the social that sabotages other abilities like remembering a geographic wey cos of normal social interaction and forgetting normal learned social logik altso sound like not only social phobia/anxiety. I simply dont know.
