Mom's works to my brother still haunt me. Brother came home from work and instead of just going to bed herself, cause it was her normal bedtime, she followed him up to his room and started yelling at him. Something stupid about respect and his messy room. He's doing so well for his age though! He's only 18, just graduated highschool and he's about to start community college soon. He's got his licensing already cause he did it through the highschool's program so he's got a head start a lot of kids his age don't have yet. He'll have entry level experience before he even walks in the college classroom. He's respectful with the general public and he knows where he wants to go in life. Better than me at his age.
But she up and told him "You can forget you have a mother! And you can find somewhere else to live!" and went on about how "I'm the only parent who will call you out when you are being mean!" and claiming that she still loves him when sentences ago she said the total opposite. It just crushes me remembering how she said that to him. I feel like even if I start doing well in life, she's just gonna explode at me over something minor like brother with his tornadic mess of a bedroom and how if she throws a comment he'll throw one right back. He said stuff that's true - about how she complains constantly about everything - and she got mad at him for that too. Called him a spoiled brat and insisted more than once that she is a good mother.
Ugh I wanted to have a decent day at work today but feeling this ****ed in the head, that's not gonna happen. Mom wants us to have lunch together tomorrow and I am not looking forward to it. I might have to just make something up about a migraine and skip out on it. I don't want to go. I hate her and its always full of just awkward silence anyways. There's no working relationship to enjoy the company of. I only go for the food. Plus I feel like she uses our lunches out as fuel for her disordered eating borderline eating disorder.
But she up and told him "You can forget you have a mother! And you can find somewhere else to live!" and went on about how "I'm the only parent who will call you out when you are being mean!" and claiming that she still loves him when sentences ago she said the total opposite. It just crushes me remembering how she said that to him. I feel like even if I start doing well in life, she's just gonna explode at me over something minor like brother with his tornadic mess of a bedroom and how if she throws a comment he'll throw one right back. He said stuff that's true - about how she complains constantly about everything - and she got mad at him for that too. Called him a spoiled brat and insisted more than once that she is a good mother.
Ugh I wanted to have a decent day at work today but feeling this ****ed in the head, that's not gonna happen. Mom wants us to have lunch together tomorrow and I am not looking forward to it. I might have to just make something up about a migraine and skip out on it. I don't want to go. I hate her and its always full of just awkward silence anyways. There's no working relationship to enjoy the company of. I only go for the food. Plus I feel like she uses our lunches out as fuel for her disordered eating borderline eating disorder.
