I am in the progress of being diagnosed with Asperger's. Today was the first day, that a professional thought that I am on the Autism Spectrum- even though I have had an idea that I am for awhile now.
I have been dealing with an issue regarding my hypersensitivity that results in visuals. What happens is that more often than not I get a visual, like a photo or movie clip of something every time I blink or close my eyes for a long time. These visuals are random, it could be a horse or someone moving a box and sometimes it's completely chaotic. The chaotic bits seem like a combination of what could be thought of as an ill-made mind map, spirals, yellow and blue light, different shapes and sizes moving around in no apparent logical form.These visuals act like they are on a shutter, constantly blinking from visual to visual. Usually if I am in a darker space it happens less frequently. I did some research and I found something called entoptic phenomenon that is closely related to what I would call the chaotic bits. I found out it's basically light hitting my eyes and what I am seeing is the neurons, white blood cells, proteins and pure refracted light. My hypothesis is that due to my keen sense of pattern recognition, some of the time my brain is able to make sense of this and create a scene. Sometimes it's as complicated as a scene of a town in the 1950s- sometimes it's a hotdog. Now, this is not a true issue for me on a daily basis. I have learned to cope because this has mostly always been around.
However, when I get anxious I twitch and I especially twitch my eyes. Looking at my eyes closed they look very similar to REM. This also happens with too much visual stimuli and/or social interaction. I start seeing a hazy visuals constantly changing while my eyes are open at this point. I am still able to see whatever it is that I am trying to concentrate on but it's overwhelming- I usually end up taking a xanax. It improves but does not stop really until after I have napped or slept. However, on the bad side, this also happens when I sleep sometimes. During sleep, I can relate the feeling to being in the middle of two galaxies colliding. Again, xanax reduces the amount of times this happens but it does not make it stop.
I was hoping to know if:
1. Does anybody else experience this?- or Something like this?
2. If so, what do you do to cope?
I have been dealing with an issue regarding my hypersensitivity that results in visuals. What happens is that more often than not I get a visual, like a photo or movie clip of something every time I blink or close my eyes for a long time. These visuals are random, it could be a horse or someone moving a box and sometimes it's completely chaotic. The chaotic bits seem like a combination of what could be thought of as an ill-made mind map, spirals, yellow and blue light, different shapes and sizes moving around in no apparent logical form.These visuals act like they are on a shutter, constantly blinking from visual to visual. Usually if I am in a darker space it happens less frequently. I did some research and I found something called entoptic phenomenon that is closely related to what I would call the chaotic bits. I found out it's basically light hitting my eyes and what I am seeing is the neurons, white blood cells, proteins and pure refracted light. My hypothesis is that due to my keen sense of pattern recognition, some of the time my brain is able to make sense of this and create a scene. Sometimes it's as complicated as a scene of a town in the 1950s- sometimes it's a hotdog. Now, this is not a true issue for me on a daily basis. I have learned to cope because this has mostly always been around.
However, when I get anxious I twitch and I especially twitch my eyes. Looking at my eyes closed they look very similar to REM. This also happens with too much visual stimuli and/or social interaction. I start seeing a hazy visuals constantly changing while my eyes are open at this point. I am still able to see whatever it is that I am trying to concentrate on but it's overwhelming- I usually end up taking a xanax. It improves but does not stop really until after I have napped or slept. However, on the bad side, this also happens when I sleep sometimes. During sleep, I can relate the feeling to being in the middle of two galaxies colliding. Again, xanax reduces the amount of times this happens but it does not make it stop.
I was hoping to know if:
1. Does anybody else experience this?- or Something like this?
2. If so, what do you do to cope?
