Yeah so i deleted all my blog entries cause i thought i was being too much of a naïve trusting rambling idiot on here, and yet here i am making another one. Makes a lot of sense, doesn't it. I just wanted someplace to put my thoughts. That's all i ever used the blog for anyways. I've been crying off and on for hours. And watched a movie on Netflix. I've been called a lot of things before, mostly by my mother, but not like this. I don't know that it was even meant to be mean spirited. I doubt it was. I'm just stupid like that really, I don't get these things even online. I just never expected to be lumped in the same category as my mother and it hurt so ****ing much to read it. Idk if i'm gonna keep this up, we'll see. I just feel like no matter what i do i **** it up. I mean how many other people have i offended or misspoke to or something came out wrong on here and they just haven't said anything about it. Does everyone think badly of me and just is too polite to say it. Or do I just not participate enough to even be remembered.