Lost my train of thought...

I had a good idea of what I wanted to write here, keyword "had". I suppose I'm dreading going back to school next week. That first day back is always horrifying, being bombarded with noise and smells and lights and people all at once. But at least I'll have a kind of structure in my life again! I feel kind of weird, because some days I feel "Wow, I really think I am autistic, I should really ask my mom/therapist about this", while others I feel totally "normal", as subjective as that may be. Maybe it's because I'm measuring how much I struggle to deem if I'm autistic or not? Wow, that's not good, like, at all then. Huh.