Lately I've been really giving in to the idea that motivation is necessary to proceed with some actions. It really isn't, not in reality. That is a myth and I know it. It makes things a lot easier; kind of less agonizing. But I don't need "motivation" really.
It's this odd concept, for example, that I want to do something- like respond to what someone wrote- but I am not otherwise motivated to, so I can't.
So having the desire to do it somehow isn't motivation haha.
And it's not like I don't know what I want to say.
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The problem with pushing yourself to the limit over and over and over- doing things like understanding that motivation isn't a necessity, for example, and then just never letting yourself use that as an excuse? You find it hard to excuse yourself for anything.
I find it hard to rest. I'm sensitive to people who criticize me for sleeping, resting, not doing way more than everyone else, ever. I've lost almost tend pounds in the last two weeks because I haven't been resting as much as I really need to- which is way more than the average person. I know I've been pushing myself quite a bit. I'm really used to it though. I'm used to people telling me there is nothing "wrong" with me in the sense that I am on the same playing field as everyone else- that nothing is any more difficult for me than anyone else. Though I know that is not true.
This is not a game of "who has it worse" though. It's simply that i know more about what goes on in my body and brain and mind than anyone else who does not posses those things and experience them from a first person point of view. So to criticize someone merely because they have extreme determination and manage to excel at "tunnel vision" seems rather absurd.
Deep Thoughts.
It's this odd concept, for example, that I want to do something- like respond to what someone wrote- but I am not otherwise motivated to, so I can't.
So having the desire to do it somehow isn't motivation haha.
And it's not like I don't know what I want to say.
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The problem with pushing yourself to the limit over and over and over- doing things like understanding that motivation isn't a necessity, for example, and then just never letting yourself use that as an excuse? You find it hard to excuse yourself for anything.
I find it hard to rest. I'm sensitive to people who criticize me for sleeping, resting, not doing way more than everyone else, ever. I've lost almost tend pounds in the last two weeks because I haven't been resting as much as I really need to- which is way more than the average person. I know I've been pushing myself quite a bit. I'm really used to it though. I'm used to people telling me there is nothing "wrong" with me in the sense that I am on the same playing field as everyone else- that nothing is any more difficult for me than anyone else. Though I know that is not true.
This is not a game of "who has it worse" though. It's simply that i know more about what goes on in my body and brain and mind than anyone else who does not posses those things and experience them from a first person point of view. So to criticize someone merely because they have extreme determination and manage to excel at "tunnel vision" seems rather absurd.
Deep Thoughts.
