I called my only friend yesterday because i was feeling too awful and i thought maybe it will feel me better. As usual she did not respond. I am always alone when i am feeling awful, that will never change. If i did not have a therapist and my faith i would have committed suicide long ago.
Dealing with everything alone might be my trial in this world but if it is it is too hard. I am starting to get envious and hateful of people whom life gave everything. They have people in their lives that support them and accept them without them masking. I can't help but be jealous of them.
Dealing with everything alone might be my trial in this world but if it is it is too hard. I am starting to get envious and hateful of people whom life gave everything. They have people in their lives that support them and accept them without them masking. I can't help but be jealous of them.
