As the whole world starts to disappear from around me and becomes less than reality at the same time as the things around me become seemingly more important and they start feeling as if I’m being watched as if I need to escape as if I need to hide as if the only true escape is to die.
The intense reality starts closing in around me getting scarier and scarier, the need to escape getting more and more intense and harder to ignore. Where do I go, what do I do, I pull the closest blanket over my head to try to make myself slightly more hidden from all of the things that are staring at me from around the room trying to lessen the need to escape from the doom that seems to be looming and coming closer and closer.
The reassuring voices seem as if they aren’t real, as if they are bad an as if they are only pretending to care to get something else out of me. I wiggle further underneath my blankets trying to hide myself more so that the reassuring voice cant see me and cant get to me and to feel safer, the voice gets louder and louder but not really but in my head making the need to escape the need to get out of this situation more intense.
I rock faster, I pull the blankets tighter around me, clamp my hands over my ears and slam the lid of my laptop closed.
It all stops.
The real world comes crashing back into my reality making the watching eyes and the untruths disappear back into the dark alleys of my brain and it’s all okay again. At least for now.
The intense reality starts closing in around me getting scarier and scarier, the need to escape getting more and more intense and harder to ignore. Where do I go, what do I do, I pull the closest blanket over my head to try to make myself slightly more hidden from all of the things that are staring at me from around the room trying to lessen the need to escape from the doom that seems to be looming and coming closer and closer.
The reassuring voices seem as if they aren’t real, as if they are bad an as if they are only pretending to care to get something else out of me. I wiggle further underneath my blankets trying to hide myself more so that the reassuring voice cant see me and cant get to me and to feel safer, the voice gets louder and louder but not really but in my head making the need to escape the need to get out of this situation more intense.
I rock faster, I pull the blankets tighter around me, clamp my hands over my ears and slam the lid of my laptop closed.
It all stops.
The real world comes crashing back into my reality making the watching eyes and the untruths disappear back into the dark alleys of my brain and it’s all okay again. At least for now.
