Things are getting very stressful, but not for any of the normal reasons.
It's finals month. Finals are normal, we have them every year and around the same time for semester long class sections. I study, but I don't think it's as stressful for me because of my memory. It's not perfect, but I don't have to study as intensely as some of my peers. That's not what's stressing me.
I have to go around to all of my professors and ask for a very specific document in a very short time frame. I scripted an introduction and question and everything but it's still wearing me out. I have 5 teachers and classes all week, it was just a lot. I started the whole thing Monday and Tuesday night I fell asleep around a bit before 8 when I usually go to bed around 10.
I hate it. I hate having to ask for things and explain myself over and over when I barely understand what I need in the first place. And it's throwing all of my plans off to run back and forth from everyones offices. I am just not built for this. It has been a major curveball and I'm forced to just adjust. I want to take a nap and never wake up.
Can people stop moving deadlines and asking for things last minute.
In the past when I said no, it had no meaning because I was forced to do it anyways. So eventually I stopped saying no because what was the point. Gonna try to start saying no again. I finally want to be myself.
It's finals month. Finals are normal, we have them every year and around the same time for semester long class sections. I study, but I don't think it's as stressful for me because of my memory. It's not perfect, but I don't have to study as intensely as some of my peers. That's not what's stressing me.
I have to go around to all of my professors and ask for a very specific document in a very short time frame. I scripted an introduction and question and everything but it's still wearing me out. I have 5 teachers and classes all week, it was just a lot. I started the whole thing Monday and Tuesday night I fell asleep around a bit before 8 when I usually go to bed around 10.
I hate it. I hate having to ask for things and explain myself over and over when I barely understand what I need in the first place. And it's throwing all of my plans off to run back and forth from everyones offices. I am just not built for this. It has been a major curveball and I'm forced to just adjust. I want to take a nap and never wake up.
Can people stop moving deadlines and asking for things last minute.
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I feel like I've been cursed with self awareness. I can see everyone and their relationships so clearly and I exist just outside of it. It was a difficult learning curve in middle school. I can observe, identify, and then I do my best to mimic but I guess I don't understand emotions at their core. There's a very clear cause and effect relationship and I've used it to my advantage, but.... why? Since I've been on here I've asked myself why less and less. I don't have to understand and that's ok. I don't have to force myself into their way of thinking.
In the past when I said no, it had no meaning because I was forced to do it anyways. So eventually I stopped saying no because what was the point. Gonna try to start saying no again. I finally want to be myself.
