Well, hello again, your back I see, that last things I wrote were a little bit much huh... well get used to it cause I get confused a lot! ; ]
The thing I find intolerable is that I have to actually work harder than most people and you guys will get this I?m sure;
I have to censure myself as I am talking because my stooped brain didn?t come with a filter as standard. Sometimes he is sure everyone wants to hear what he has to say. I have to make sure I don?t talk too much either but then also, that I don?t stop talking at an odd moment or also, I sometimes will not talk enough and people think I am pissed off, I'm not I just don?t need to speak for 15 minutes if the answer can be said in a word.
I have to make sure I am conscious of what my damn body is doing because he just wants to go places and do things and I need him to stand there and look normal, no tapping, flapping, clicking or wringing and I end up looking like a hungry, gay, bored, in-need-of-a-pee mime, at a funeral (at least to my mind)
I consciously have to make sure I look at a person to supposedly give them my undivided attention while I actually am looking to try to work out if they are happy, sad, romantical or about to punch me! However, I can?t look too much as then it?s deemed as uncomfortable and I certainly can't look all over the body to check for movements, stances etc. This can be misconstrued in today?s society and nobody wants to be a perv.
I have to be constantly vigilant as to the things I do so as not to seem exclusionary, like wandering off to talk to cats or talking to the person in the group that interests me, I have to talk to all the other people too so they don?t feel left out, you cant just say 'your crap at stuff so, I only wanna talk to your mate'.
I have to try to remember that people have feelings and they get hurt in their feelings quite a bit because they are very fragile and emotional creatures, delicate little flowers? if you just said what you mean I could go to bed early as I didn?t bring my frigging Rosetta stone along today? huff, huff, huff
Doh, why is it that people don?t realize that they are such hard work, all the time. All. The. Time! Sometimes I feel like I just ran a marathon, got punched in the face, touched up and rubbed down and now you wanna go dancing, I only asked if I could get a large Cappuccino to go, with one sugar! And this is how hard I have to work on a daily basis and I haven?t even opened the shop yet ; ]
Ahh people, they are a magical bunch of misfits? aren?t we, cause we?re people too it turns out. It?s just that we were so exited at being alive that when the creator was wiring up the brain we were busy doing cartwheels ; ]
The thing I find intolerable is that I have to actually work harder than most people and you guys will get this I?m sure;
I have to censure myself as I am talking because my stooped brain didn?t come with a filter as standard. Sometimes he is sure everyone wants to hear what he has to say. I have to make sure I don?t talk too much either but then also, that I don?t stop talking at an odd moment or also, I sometimes will not talk enough and people think I am pissed off, I'm not I just don?t need to speak for 15 minutes if the answer can be said in a word.
I have to make sure I am conscious of what my damn body is doing because he just wants to go places and do things and I need him to stand there and look normal, no tapping, flapping, clicking or wringing and I end up looking like a hungry, gay, bored, in-need-of-a-pee mime, at a funeral (at least to my mind)
I consciously have to make sure I look at a person to supposedly give them my undivided attention while I actually am looking to try to work out if they are happy, sad, romantical or about to punch me! However, I can?t look too much as then it?s deemed as uncomfortable and I certainly can't look all over the body to check for movements, stances etc. This can be misconstrued in today?s society and nobody wants to be a perv.
I have to be constantly vigilant as to the things I do so as not to seem exclusionary, like wandering off to talk to cats or talking to the person in the group that interests me, I have to talk to all the other people too so they don?t feel left out, you cant just say 'your crap at stuff so, I only wanna talk to your mate'.
I have to try to remember that people have feelings and they get hurt in their feelings quite a bit because they are very fragile and emotional creatures, delicate little flowers? if you just said what you mean I could go to bed early as I didn?t bring my frigging Rosetta stone along today? huff, huff, huff
Doh, why is it that people don?t realize that they are such hard work, all the time. All. The. Time! Sometimes I feel like I just ran a marathon, got punched in the face, touched up and rubbed down and now you wanna go dancing, I only asked if I could get a large Cappuccino to go, with one sugar! And this is how hard I have to work on a daily basis and I haven?t even opened the shop yet ; ]
Ahh people, they are a magical bunch of misfits? aren?t we, cause we?re people too it turns out. It?s just that we were so exited at being alive that when the creator was wiring up the brain we were busy doing cartwheels ; ]
