You loved me more when I was broken

You loved me more when I was broken and bad. Loaded with problems. Preaching but not living, unable to swallow my own words. I was weak and ignorant of my negative and painful affects on you. I rejected everything emotional and disabled myself but you carried on loving me. Now that I?m finally on my way to being good, you?ve left me. Now that I actually have a chance in this world, you?ve gone. Is this the fix you were looking for? Do you not believe that you deserve the outcome of all your hard work? Are you going to find another person who will hurt you again until they find the truth and strength to change? Did you not see that I wasn?t good enough for you before? Are you not good enough for me now? Impossible. Not some as amazing as you. You inspire me. You inspire me to be happy, to smile, to be emotional, to express myself. You helped me face the fear of showing people what was going on inside. Now what can I do for you? I am at your feet...