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Yeshuasdaughter

Yeshuasdaughter

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  • Yeshuasdaughter
    Between crazy criminals, my father's 6 month Yahrtzeit, 9/11, and the two doctor's visits this week, I am very nervous. Wide awake. Unable to sleep. Weaving on my inkle loom, for comfort. Trying to even figure out what I'm thinking or feeling. Writing it through my hands on yarn as the shuttle passes through the warp.
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    FayetheAspie
    FayetheAspie
    Do you speak Yiddish fluently?
    Yeshuasdaughter
    Yeshuasdaughter
    I try and learn languages. It becomes a special interest. But then I forget most of it within a year or two. To be honest, I barely even speak English.
    FayetheAspie
    FayetheAspie
    Languages cycle around as special interests for me too. It makes it hard to get fluent.
    Yeshuasdaughter
    I miss my father so much today. My daughter is all broken up too. So I'm faking positivity on the outside, trying to keep us distracted. It hurts though, like a knife into my heart.
    Rodafina
    Rodafina
    I think we don't have to hide our emotions to protect others in cases like this. You have every right to be absolutely a mess over losing your father and I think your daughter can handle seeing that. You don't need the additional pain of hiding your sorrow. You don't always need to be the pillar of strength for others.
    Yeshuasdaughter
    I have a friend right now, that I miss a lot. I don't know what's going on. But I know they are very strong and capable. But still, I'm a little sad. And I can't help worrying.
    Yeshuasdaughter
    Needed urgent dr visit. Hard time getting ready. Got there. Receptionist mistakenly scheduled for next week. I cried a little but tried to hold it in. Left. Went to ER. Metal detector at the door. I had two big knives in my purse and didn't want them taken away. So I left and cried again. Went to the store. Got medicine, and food. Had to put back most stuff at the register. Home in bed now. Tomorrow is a new day.
    Yeshuasdaughter
    I hurt my hip earlier and messed up my wheelchair a little in the crash. Not as bad as it sounds. But I got chided by the apartment manager for being too loud when I cried out. Came home and had a big embarrassed, ashamed cry. Felt like a burden to everyone. Kinda stiff now, weak. But I will feel better soon. It's not as bad as it sounds.
    Yeshuasdaughter
    Got close to a baby redhawk and an old woman nursing it. Still had his nest feathers. Couldn't fly. Once in a lifetime event. The baby was calling out for mama with that shrill hawk scream that cuts to the soul.
    Yeshuasdaughter
    It's always so hard when I go nonverbal in public. I was straining so hard inside my mind to tell my daughter something. But the words just wouldn't come. I wish I knew ASL. Happy thing today- I got to see sailboats on a glittering river, with a glacier-capped peak in the distance.
    jsilver256
    jsilver256
    Unfortunately ASL doesn't really help me in those moments either although I might be able to get out a sign or two. As I understand it, it is cognitive overload which temporarily overrides the ability to communicate.
    FayetheAspie
    FayetheAspie
    Yeah, it's like you have trouble moving or speaking until you calm some. I think it is called an autistic shut down.
    Yeshuasdaughter
    dizzy, in pain, crying, sick. and i am having totally unrelated minor surgery in about an hour and a half. i feel so faint and my stomach hurts so much. it's nothing new. all I can do is cry. the surgery is a good thing though. but it's kind of like the straw that broke the camel's back. i feel very afraid, and I am in great pain.
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    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Like Forest Cat, l send what support l can muster up and gently state. You will do this and succeed , you are a born fighter, you will get thru this, and we are waiting here to read that you got thru this.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Sometimes crying releases my pain.......l belive crying is a whole therapy within itself.
    Yeshuasdaughter
    Yeshuasdaughter
    Thank you guys. I'm kicking myself for not getting surgery yesterday. But I was in such agony that my hair had matted into one big dreadlock from tossing and turning in bed. I actually took a pain pill, which I never ever ever do. And it took the edge off enough that I could go get groceries. I'm still sore, but it's not a acute like it was yesterday. I was able to go out and run errands across state lines.
    Yeshuasdaughter
    Everyone pray! We saw a girl all drugged and passed out getting human trafficked.

    Carried limp body from one car to the next with skimpy dressed girls in the back.
    Yeshuasdaughter
    Nonverbal when I need to say things out loud. Bad stutter when I try to force the words out. Big things I have to do, and I can't seem to do it right.
    Yeshuasdaughter
    crying
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Hope you are feeling better today.
    Yeshuasdaughter
    Yeshuasdaughter
    It just feels so wrong. Like, it's not supposed to happen. When people pass away. Or when people turn bad and have to be kept away. It is obvious that we are all supposed to be together forever.
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