I guess you were right! Now things are looking uncertain about whether or not we will even be in school this fall, so I'm not very far from where I started in December. Even though I know you meant more typical every day school life.
Also now I'm leaning toward Math/Plant Biology and trying my hardest to combine the two and fit into the school curriculum now that I have had a lot of time to myself to think. That's another change. This is because I enjoy plants, gardens, and botany. My ideal life has always been living in a house with big sunny windows in a quiet neighborhood. I found
this instagram account and I figured that I wanted a life just like that someday filled with light and flowers. It's a nice thought. But also on the other hand I like the precision and application of math and mathematical concepts. If you know of any obvious overlap, let me know. I can't seem to figure out how they relate exactly on my own. Gardens, greenhouses, problem sets, almanacs, diagrams.
This whole situation with the social distancing and isolation has really scattered my brain I think. And this is a common feeling I think. I just can't seem to order myself the way I have been. How can doing nothing make you so tired? I think it might be depression creeping in again
it's not outside that I miss most, it's the structure. I think this is also normal though. (I've also been thinking that maybe I've been focusing too much on this idea of being/wanting to be "normal" or "average" maybe you can understand?)