Trigger warning for people that suffer from addiction. I’m most definitely not recommending this for other people, I have a very diverse neurology and an unusual character and mindset, my experience with alcohol is very different to what is considered normal.
I only ever drink when I’m happy, or if I need to do some serious socialising where I need to impress people. If I’m happy then I don’t mind a few drinks and I’m always a happy drunk, if sometimes a little annoying. In social situations a little alcohol frees my tongue and I can be very influential and persuasive, for me alcohol is a very useful tool.
For the past 5 years I’ve drank less and less, almost to the point of being a tea totaller, in me this does not always represent a good thing, it means I’m not really happy and that I don’t feel really sociable. That fits with looking back at the past 5 years of my life too, I’ve been reasonably content but that’s the total extent of it. I haven’t been really happy.
I’m drinking again.
We’ve had weird weather for the last 5 years too and that also plays a role, I much prefer cold beer in hot weather and that’s something we haven’t had in Adelaide for the last 5 years. This year it just feels like we’re going to have a normal summer again, the weather feels right in a way that it hasn’t since 6 months after I moved back here.
But it’s more than just the weather affecting me. I think a big part of it will have something to do with me having a car again and all the freedom that goes with that. That freedom makes a huge difference to me and so in general I’m a much happier person even if I don’t go somewhere every day.
There’s more to it than that though, just in general I feel happier and I feel more sociable. Maybe I’ve just worked my way through my version of depression and I’m coming out the other end. That’s my fond hope anyway.
When I say I’m drinking again – I’ve bought 2 cartons of beer in a month and I’ve only just started on the second carton. The other day I got what felt like being absolutely smashed to me, I drank 4 cans. (4.9% alc/vol) So no, I’m not suddenly turning in to an alcoholic, I just find it interesting that I’m drinking at all after the past 5 years.
I only ever drink when I’m happy, or if I need to do some serious socialising where I need to impress people. If I’m happy then I don’t mind a few drinks and I’m always a happy drunk, if sometimes a little annoying. In social situations a little alcohol frees my tongue and I can be very influential and persuasive, for me alcohol is a very useful tool.
For the past 5 years I’ve drank less and less, almost to the point of being a tea totaller, in me this does not always represent a good thing, it means I’m not really happy and that I don’t feel really sociable. That fits with looking back at the past 5 years of my life too, I’ve been reasonably content but that’s the total extent of it. I haven’t been really happy.
I’m drinking again.
We’ve had weird weather for the last 5 years too and that also plays a role, I much prefer cold beer in hot weather and that’s something we haven’t had in Adelaide for the last 5 years. This year it just feels like we’re going to have a normal summer again, the weather feels right in a way that it hasn’t since 6 months after I moved back here.
But it’s more than just the weather affecting me. I think a big part of it will have something to do with me having a car again and all the freedom that goes with that. That freedom makes a huge difference to me and so in general I’m a much happier person even if I don’t go somewhere every day.
There’s more to it than that though, just in general I feel happier and I feel more sociable. Maybe I’ve just worked my way through my version of depression and I’m coming out the other end. That’s my fond hope anyway.
When I say I’m drinking again – I’ve bought 2 cartons of beer in a month and I’ve only just started on the second carton. The other day I got what felt like being absolutely smashed to me, I drank 4 cans. (4.9% alc/vol) So no, I’m not suddenly turning in to an alcoholic, I just find it interesting that I’m drinking at all after the past 5 years.