felines are superior
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Anhedonia - lack of happiness and enjoyment from things you previously loved and enjoyed.
Until age nine, I felt happiness and calm anytime I was out in nature, just out on the street with its trees and bushes could do. And when I petted a dog and found a feral cat. Age nine, for no apparent reason and without depression, everything turned boring and flat.
I don't know if this is anhedonia or just a mild case of anhedonia, because I can still feel something when out in nature or petting my cats, but the feelings are mild. I can enjoy food, could feel grief enormously when one of my cats died. When in nature, I can feel a bit of enjoyment, but it fades rather quickly and turns to boredom.
I used to suffer from anxiety before age nine, and maybe this can cause anhedonia, but I still feel flat even when not feeling anxiety at the moment, nor depressed. And the anhedonia has lasted for DECADES!
In my teens and twenties, I've engaged in risky behavior and got some kind of rush from danger. I don't do it anymore. Age ten or eleven, I even thought about dying, although I wasn't suicidal. I remember when my nieces were little, I enjoyed spending time with them. But every time I was around them, I felt the fear that something horrible will happen to them like an accident or whatever, especially the feeling of fear intensified by the noise they were making because I'm afraid of noise. It made me spend less time with them, and now I regret it.
Are aspies more vulnerable to it? How many of you fellow aspies have/had it? Does it even sound like anhedonia? What can be done? I've tried meditation my own way, which is walking in nature and trying to relax and feel. Helps a bit. Can anyone relate? Please tell your stories.
Until age nine, I felt happiness and calm anytime I was out in nature, just out on the street with its trees and bushes could do. And when I petted a dog and found a feral cat. Age nine, for no apparent reason and without depression, everything turned boring and flat.
I don't know if this is anhedonia or just a mild case of anhedonia, because I can still feel something when out in nature or petting my cats, but the feelings are mild. I can enjoy food, could feel grief enormously when one of my cats died. When in nature, I can feel a bit of enjoyment, but it fades rather quickly and turns to boredom.
I used to suffer from anxiety before age nine, and maybe this can cause anhedonia, but I still feel flat even when not feeling anxiety at the moment, nor depressed. And the anhedonia has lasted for DECADES!
In my teens and twenties, I've engaged in risky behavior and got some kind of rush from danger. I don't do it anymore. Age ten or eleven, I even thought about dying, although I wasn't suicidal. I remember when my nieces were little, I enjoyed spending time with them. But every time I was around them, I felt the fear that something horrible will happen to them like an accident or whatever, especially the feeling of fear intensified by the noise they were making because I'm afraid of noise. It made me spend less time with them, and now I regret it.
Are aspies more vulnerable to it? How many of you fellow aspies have/had it? Does it even sound like anhedonia? What can be done? I've tried meditation my own way, which is walking in nature and trying to relax and feel. Helps a bit. Can anyone relate? Please tell your stories.
