Knower of nothing
Well-Known Member
Hello everyone.
I got diagnosed before age 12. Dropped out of school a few years after. Been shut-in ever since, now 25.
Being shut-in and unemployed comes with the usual solitary hobby package so I like games, music, film, anime, recently started reading too. I compose a little on the side, I write whenever there's mental floods.
It seems rather than any kind of adaptation, my response to learning to live with autism was that placing myself away from anything bothersome is the simplest and most effective solution. I stand by this, though as it turns out, self-imposed isolation can trigger a nasty social-phobia that I'm now trapped under the weight of. Can no longer do groceries alone and what not, but it's alright. The benefits still far outweigh the downsides.
With autism however it is difficult to think positively. I feel like I'm wading through a swamp whenever I try to get anything done. The way tiny insignificant events can set an entire day off-balance unless you manage to catch yourself. The way thoughts are like a ceaseless floodgate of drivel and circular exploration of every pointless idea you've had in the last decade. It gets a little old. A guidance councellar once said to me that you need to learn to accept it. I wonder what makes people think dissatisfaction with a reality is a denial of it?
I got diagnosed before age 12. Dropped out of school a few years after. Been shut-in ever since, now 25.
Being shut-in and unemployed comes with the usual solitary hobby package so I like games, music, film, anime, recently started reading too. I compose a little on the side, I write whenever there's mental floods.
It seems rather than any kind of adaptation, my response to learning to live with autism was that placing myself away from anything bothersome is the simplest and most effective solution. I stand by this, though as it turns out, self-imposed isolation can trigger a nasty social-phobia that I'm now trapped under the weight of. Can no longer do groceries alone and what not, but it's alright. The benefits still far outweigh the downsides.
With autism however it is difficult to think positively. I feel like I'm wading through a swamp whenever I try to get anything done. The way tiny insignificant events can set an entire day off-balance unless you manage to catch yourself. The way thoughts are like a ceaseless floodgate of drivel and circular exploration of every pointless idea you've had in the last decade. It gets a little old. A guidance councellar once said to me that you need to learn to accept it. I wonder what makes people think dissatisfaction with a reality is a denial of it?
