Well, I am Suzanne, who is sadly 44 and soon to be 45, married and due to an article I read, some year's back, it hit me that I am on the spectrum of Asperger's. I hasten to add, I had never heard of this before and knew without a doubt, I am not autistic and so, put my behaviour patterns down to just being weird. Then I read this article of a young girl who had something called: Asperger's and the more I read, the more, I felt I was reading about myself; she was a lot worse though, but fundamentally it was like: wow, that is me!
I kept quiet about it, because I am perfectly aware how prejudiced people can be if you say: oh I read such a such and I am sure I have aspergers! So the first time, I admitted that I could have it, was to my long suffering husband, who typically laughed and said: sure etc etc, which made me go into myself and not say a word after that, but each time we would have words, he would come out and say: Suzanne, for goodness sake, I feel that I have to explain everything to you because you pick up on the first word and am convinced I mean that? It is true of course, I do do that ie I am a literal person, but am trying to learn to keep quite and wait for more information. My husband has always complained that I do not know how to change my volume when I am talking and well, I did put that down to growing up with a household of 7 and the tv on all the time, but now see, it is an aspie thing, because I am totally unaware of keeping to the same volume when in the same room and when I get excited, my volume control seems to have vanished lol
I tried to forget about it all, thinking that I could not possibly have it and come on, it is easy enough to read something and think that is you, but the more I tried to forget, the more, it would hit me and it was a case of: oh my goodness, yes, that is so me and wow, I remember being that way when I was a child.
I am very reluctant to get an official diagnosis for I live in France and I just do not trust them to be open minded ie take a series of tests and if I do not do one thing or ok with one thing, they will slam me that I am not, when I know very well I am!
I have had it confirmed actually via some people I know. So all that is left is an official confirmation and I am fighting against that and just want people to accept my word for something!
So, I joined this forum, in the hope that I will learn.
It is hard being married because my husband does have a lot to deal with and I do as well, because he shouts at me in frustration and so we have a very choppy time together!
I feel that I have written way too much here and so, I shall not go on and on and on
I kept quiet about it, because I am perfectly aware how prejudiced people can be if you say: oh I read such a such and I am sure I have aspergers! So the first time, I admitted that I could have it, was to my long suffering husband, who typically laughed and said: sure etc etc, which made me go into myself and not say a word after that, but each time we would have words, he would come out and say: Suzanne, for goodness sake, I feel that I have to explain everything to you because you pick up on the first word and am convinced I mean that? It is true of course, I do do that ie I am a literal person, but am trying to learn to keep quite and wait for more information. My husband has always complained that I do not know how to change my volume when I am talking and well, I did put that down to growing up with a household of 7 and the tv on all the time, but now see, it is an aspie thing, because I am totally unaware of keeping to the same volume when in the same room and when I get excited, my volume control seems to have vanished lol
I tried to forget about it all, thinking that I could not possibly have it and come on, it is easy enough to read something and think that is you, but the more I tried to forget, the more, it would hit me and it was a case of: oh my goodness, yes, that is so me and wow, I remember being that way when I was a child.
I am very reluctant to get an official diagnosis for I live in France and I just do not trust them to be open minded ie take a series of tests and if I do not do one thing or ok with one thing, they will slam me that I am not, when I know very well I am!
I have had it confirmed actually via some people I know. So all that is left is an official confirmation and I am fighting against that and just want people to accept my word for something!
So, I joined this forum, in the hope that I will learn.
It is hard being married because my husband does have a lot to deal with and I do as well, because he shouts at me in frustration and so we have a very choppy time together!
I feel that I have written way too much here and so, I shall not go on and on and on
