ouviel
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Hi! I'll just start.
I diagnosed myself as aspergers at 31 years old. It happened unexpectedly, thanks to an Aspergers from Inside video recommendation on youtube. I've always suspected I was aspergers, but to be sure, I needed more information to set aside the stereotypes I didn't fit in, so that youtube channel really changed things for me.
I'm here to read more experiences that will echo mine, because it's healthy. On my part, I won't enumerate all the signs that have led me to my self-diagnosis; for now I just want to talk about what I have in mind.
I always get the impression that I'm an odd case for the turns my life has made (not only when it comes to aspergers, but also with my homosexuality).
Since childhood, human interaction has always been overwhelming to me. I've experienced several burnouts thoughout my life, because I've always struggled with following other people in any way. I get left behind because I process interactions in a very different manner. This has meant various forms of rejection for me. I used to have no filter with what I said, and I used to tire people with my obsessions, without noticing; but at 13 years old, some school mates where very mean to me about that, and isolated me. Since then, I became even more stressed when interacting; although most of the time I just don't interact at all.
My mind is always having something on a loop. When I'm ok, it's a special interest; but when I'm low, it's what I said to this person, what that person said to me, how we say things, when, everything. I've lived most of my life depressed, so I regret not having embraced who I am before, because I would have liked to develop my special interest as far as I could take them. I've had various traumatic experiences for not fitting in, and they have left me with very unhealthy obsessions. But my mind works that way, in general - either on a loop, or just blank and non-functional.
I've come a long way. I'm getting better (although I committed self-harm only recently). I have had difficulty getting and keeping a job because of my burnouts. Currently, I'm trying to start over; I'm studying front-end web developing. Wish me luck. Thanks for reading and replying. I'm eager to learn from other experiences.
I diagnosed myself as aspergers at 31 years old. It happened unexpectedly, thanks to an Aspergers from Inside video recommendation on youtube. I've always suspected I was aspergers, but to be sure, I needed more information to set aside the stereotypes I didn't fit in, so that youtube channel really changed things for me.
I'm here to read more experiences that will echo mine, because it's healthy. On my part, I won't enumerate all the signs that have led me to my self-diagnosis; for now I just want to talk about what I have in mind.
I always get the impression that I'm an odd case for the turns my life has made (not only when it comes to aspergers, but also with my homosexuality).
Since childhood, human interaction has always been overwhelming to me. I've experienced several burnouts thoughout my life, because I've always struggled with following other people in any way. I get left behind because I process interactions in a very different manner. This has meant various forms of rejection for me. I used to have no filter with what I said, and I used to tire people with my obsessions, without noticing; but at 13 years old, some school mates where very mean to me about that, and isolated me. Since then, I became even more stressed when interacting; although most of the time I just don't interact at all.
My mind is always having something on a loop. When I'm ok, it's a special interest; but when I'm low, it's what I said to this person, what that person said to me, how we say things, when, everything. I've lived most of my life depressed, so I regret not having embraced who I am before, because I would have liked to develop my special interest as far as I could take them. I've had various traumatic experiences for not fitting in, and they have left me with very unhealthy obsessions. But my mind works that way, in general - either on a loop, or just blank and non-functional.
I've come a long way. I'm getting better (although I committed self-harm only recently). I have had difficulty getting and keeping a job because of my burnouts. Currently, I'm trying to start over; I'm studying front-end web developing. Wish me luck. Thanks for reading and replying. I'm eager to learn from other experiences.
