in June my father was visiting we had a discussion I brought up in louder voice than usual how I was great at board game Risk, but could not win a single game not even on easy against computer over 50 tries, a lil bit later my brother suggested I take a test online for aspergers at first I was fabergasted, I did it got 23 red zone 29 to 36, I borderline, then I put pieces together, all made sense all my struggles, many being 4 going to kindegarten first day on bus being picked on, does not, watching a show as writing this Hannibal, Will Graham chartacter aspy like us, way he thinks, very empathic, also a great imagination, I have felt that been afraid of what I've pieced together, I hoping tomorrow I can ask this lady out, she been giving me all the body language getting close saying my name in hi and goodbye, I've frozen up last few times, going to try a diff angle between appts at VA see her at store off the clock no truck, I amit I intimidated at asking, part of me afraid of yes all the change, I took a quic got AOCV, I want social interraction just very hard to engage