Assessment looming ... Here's to finding out who I am

[enzyme1978]

Hi, I am a 37 year old from the UK awaiting an assessment. My Sister and Nephew have Aspergers and ADHD and we are convinced my Dad is on the spectrum too. My boyfriend was only diagnosed last week so I am surrounded by aspies (not that it's a bad thing) and he suggested I join to see if I could meet other adult females who present like me. I'm high functioning and have worked all my life in tech and sales (yes, the worse job for someone with an ASD) but my life took a turn five years ago after a relationship break-up, and I became very withdrawn and even more angry and intolerant of people. When I met my current boyfriend a year and a half ago I flipped out at him being in my personal space (I've done a lot of reading and I believe it was because he was interfering with my strong rituals and routines). Anyway, after months of struggles with my relationship, horrific meltdowns leading to broken bones and furniture and a lot of damage to my home, and battling with a new job I had a nervous breakdown and now in recovery. My Sister spent twenty years under the mental health service after getting into trouble with the law and drugs and it was her conditions all along. I present differently but we are not that much different.

I'd love to hear from other women on the spectrum who can relate to what has happened to me.

 

[Omega]

You will find plenty of support and information here. I hope you enjoy your stay. Welcome and good luck!

 

[StephF]

Hi, welcome !

 

[Rocco]

Welcome aboard and good luck

 

[Tom]

Hi & Welcome to AC!
It seems like about half our membership is women, so you should be able to find people with similar experiences.

 

[Progster]

Welcome, and good luck with your assessment

 

[EdR]

Welcome enzyme.

There are many active women on this forum and you should able to connect with them without difficulty. I hope that they will be able to assist you in minimizing your difficulties.

 

[enzyme1978]

Thank you everyone

 

[Epicurean Pariah]

Welcome aboard and good luck
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Rocco, you, as well as your art, never cease to amaze me.
If your "being" was a painting, I do believe you would be recognized as a masterpiece !

 

[Epicurean Pariah]

Enzyme, Do you have any interest in hearing from old farts? Or do you prefer a girls club for now? Or maybe later.

 

[Datura]

Yay! Mental breakdowns! (sarcasm)

I've been there, or rather, I am there. Currently taking time off work because I can't really function in any reliable capacity at the moment. Thankfully I have never been very destructive, but there are times it is very difficult to suppress the urge. Just this evening I nearly smashed my computer into tiny pieces, then had to stop myself from smashing in my own head. Where does all the anger come from?

Anyway, I am getting help, and it seems as though you are too. I hope all goes well for you and that whatever you discover in your assessment leads you toward a happier life.

 

[enzyme1978]

EP absolutely! The more comments I can get to feel like I'm not loosing my mind the better thank you.
Hi Datura and thank you too. I have no idea where all the anger comes from but I do know I am trying my hardest to keep it under control. Sorry to hear you are in the same boot - are you diagnosed? The biggest issue for me now is deciding what to do for work. Post breakdown is hardly a good time to decide on a career change, but I need to change because the thought of staying in a Sales role under pressure is enough to set me back weeks

 

[Datura]

I have been diagnosed with OCD, depression, and anxiety. I have also practically (but not technically) been diagnosed with ADD. I have no ASD diagnosis as of yet.

 

[ChrisC1983]

i'm somewhat in the same boat of finding myself.. i'm 31 and they only officially said months ago (but in an unofficial capacity.. nobody in this state wants to admit to anything.. thats a problem for another rant) that i was on the scale. luckily it sounds like your family and b/f (although having their own issues) are more supportive than mine..... but i think just hearing a "professional" will solidify anything the family or you have said to yourself so you can start to focus on fixing some of the problem areas. that's not to say those aspects go away.. every part is a case by case basis, you may even want to keep some of the anger but create a place where you can stop yourself and say "is this a reaction i need right now?" and, if it's not, then you can stop at some yelling.