What if you could go back to before?
Before things changed.
And do it again.
Would you?
If you could choose any moment in your life and return to it, and go forward from there. Would you want to try?
Life wouldn't just automatically end up being the same. Nor would you get to go round and round like in ‘Groundhog Day’, learning to do it better after each time you fail. You’ll just start from there and see what happens. You just won't know you’d already done it before. Everything from that point on hasn't happened, so there would be no memory of having already done it.
How far back would you go? Which part of your life would you want to return to?
For those people with real lives, happy marriages, great kids, wonderful jobs, you probably wouldn't consider doing such a thing. But for those who don't have much of a life. We might.
When I was a kid, I used to imagine if an alien spacecraft ever landed in front of me and invited me to come on board, knowing I would never be able to come back, I would just go. Without even needing to think.
Or if God were to suddenly appear before me and say: come on, I have something for you to do. I would go. Without even needing to think about it.
And yet, as I sit here imagining which part of my life I would want to return to, I cannot decide on one particular bit. I wouldn't be who I am without having gone through what I have. So what do I let go of? Knowing my marriage failed, do I go back to before I met her? Or before I agreed to say I do? Do I give up being a dad, just because that didn't end well?
Life was a lot simpler for me back then. I was a lot simpler. Sometimes it's hard to remember who that was. But I have evidence of him, in my many writings, and sometimes, when I read them, and get reminded of what took place, I wonder what it would be like to be him again, to be able to do it again, have another go, and see if I would do it any better a second time round.
Before things changed.
And do it again.
Would you?
If you could choose any moment in your life and return to it, and go forward from there. Would you want to try?
Life wouldn't just automatically end up being the same. Nor would you get to go round and round like in ‘Groundhog Day’, learning to do it better after each time you fail. You’ll just start from there and see what happens. You just won't know you’d already done it before. Everything from that point on hasn't happened, so there would be no memory of having already done it.
How far back would you go? Which part of your life would you want to return to?
For those people with real lives, happy marriages, great kids, wonderful jobs, you probably wouldn't consider doing such a thing. But for those who don't have much of a life. We might.
When I was a kid, I used to imagine if an alien spacecraft ever landed in front of me and invited me to come on board, knowing I would never be able to come back, I would just go. Without even needing to think.
Or if God were to suddenly appear before me and say: come on, I have something for you to do. I would go. Without even needing to think about it.
And yet, as I sit here imagining which part of my life I would want to return to, I cannot decide on one particular bit. I wouldn't be who I am without having gone through what I have. So what do I let go of? Knowing my marriage failed, do I go back to before I met her? Or before I agreed to say I do? Do I give up being a dad, just because that didn't end well?
Life was a lot simpler for me back then. I was a lot simpler. Sometimes it's hard to remember who that was. But I have evidence of him, in my many writings, and sometimes, when I read them, and get reminded of what took place, I wonder what it would be like to be him again, to be able to do it again, have another go, and see if I would do it any better a second time round.
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