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Jimmy The Neurotypical
Well, I have been almost 2 years out since I got into the self awareness of my spectrum traits and talents. I still can't quite define my identity in a consistent way that enhances my attempts at interaction that I need to get through. I've tried a large variety of the tips shared by others and utilized the Dr. Tony Attwood aspie discovery model as my main philosophy to myself. I believe that I have talent that most people do not, and a particular challenge of presenting the best me to others so I can be understood and appreciated. I do not yet know how to apologize and take proper responsibility for the (abundant) mistakes that frequently require resolution.
I have this issue now that I feel really burnt out by my day to day activities. My job is at a help desk role, helping most people get equipment replaced or set up. I rarely have troubleshooting on what I'm trained for because everyone that needs help either just fails to understand what to do and needs to be taught (to varying but typically low degrees of capability and/or willingness), or the equipment fails to run how it is designed and needs software resetting or replacement.
At work I've prepared a FAQ of sorts which is a document I use with leaders and trainers to help present the best me, communicating my primary skills and areas I am focusing on improving. I feel like my biggest fault is difficulty in asking for help and receiving feedback. I can always understand why the feedback is given but this is the part driving my burnout. It's just the same feedback I've always gotten and with no useful strategies that help me improve my interaction. Because of this, my responses are worsening, I start to feel nitpicked and that I am a problem child and general irritation to those around me. This compounds the existing burnout and is also creating a somewhat new anxiety response to even minor conflict where I feel someone isn't cooperating with my suggestions or being able to understand my input.
I never used to get rushes of increased heart rate, difficulty speaking, and overall adrenaline in my limbs (becoming shaky), except in the most specific situations like my car is about to break down or someone is being very rude to me on the help call. Now I get this anytime that what I say isn't heard/understood or someone doesn't comply with what I'm trying to accomplish with them. Or if I am being given the stale feedbacks that don't add to my areas of focus meaningfully. Basically I don't know what to do to remedy or improve this specific incident of the anxiety or decrease the burnout. I feel like there is not a specific problem with my leaders, they are behaving as expected and as would be to the benefit of almost anyone they assist, but because I'm so different the challenge is compounding. Still it feels that I used to be supported by very exceptional leaders who have now gotten better positions or changed to other locations of my company due to their excellence, and part of the problem is that these leaders aren't as positive & supportive. They did a better job of 2 important aspects- Not worrying about telling me what to do and how to do it, along with taking an interest in my needs and goals.
Maybe there is a way I can improve upon my life by choosing a strategy in communication the cope with the conflict scenarios that are causing me the most difficulty. I think the answer is most definitely an enhancement specifically to MY own communication. I wonder if anyone else has dealt with a similar situation.
I have this issue now that I feel really burnt out by my day to day activities. My job is at a help desk role, helping most people get equipment replaced or set up. I rarely have troubleshooting on what I'm trained for because everyone that needs help either just fails to understand what to do and needs to be taught (to varying but typically low degrees of capability and/or willingness), or the equipment fails to run how it is designed and needs software resetting or replacement.
At work I've prepared a FAQ of sorts which is a document I use with leaders and trainers to help present the best me, communicating my primary skills and areas I am focusing on improving. I feel like my biggest fault is difficulty in asking for help and receiving feedback. I can always understand why the feedback is given but this is the part driving my burnout. It's just the same feedback I've always gotten and with no useful strategies that help me improve my interaction. Because of this, my responses are worsening, I start to feel nitpicked and that I am a problem child and general irritation to those around me. This compounds the existing burnout and is also creating a somewhat new anxiety response to even minor conflict where I feel someone isn't cooperating with my suggestions or being able to understand my input.
I never used to get rushes of increased heart rate, difficulty speaking, and overall adrenaline in my limbs (becoming shaky), except in the most specific situations like my car is about to break down or someone is being very rude to me on the help call. Now I get this anytime that what I say isn't heard/understood or someone doesn't comply with what I'm trying to accomplish with them. Or if I am being given the stale feedbacks that don't add to my areas of focus meaningfully. Basically I don't know what to do to remedy or improve this specific incident of the anxiety or decrease the burnout. I feel like there is not a specific problem with my leaders, they are behaving as expected and as would be to the benefit of almost anyone they assist, but because I'm so different the challenge is compounding. Still it feels that I used to be supported by very exceptional leaders who have now gotten better positions or changed to other locations of my company due to their excellence, and part of the problem is that these leaders aren't as positive & supportive. They did a better job of 2 important aspects- Not worrying about telling me what to do and how to do it, along with taking an interest in my needs and goals.
Maybe there is a way I can improve upon my life by choosing a strategy in communication the cope with the conflict scenarios that are causing me the most difficulty. I think the answer is most definitely an enhancement specifically to MY own communication. I wonder if anyone else has dealt with a similar situation.
