I can't leave the house and get on the bus to go somewhere new unless I look at the satellite map and visually see exactly where every bus stop is and the landmarks around them. I memorize these images. Then I write down step-by-step what bus I get on and where I get off and connect to the next one and the streets and little notes I think might help me. I can never remember what the bus number is, only what the map looks like, And landmarks such as a roundabout or a stand of trees off to the left. Once I have started my trip I cannot deviate because I think it will mess me up. I'm afraid I will get lost and be stuck somewhere away from home. This is stupid because I'm 36 year old and I don't think other people my age worry about these things. While I'm riding the bus I have extreme anxiety about missing my stop. So I can't just relax and enjoy the ride. I also have anxiety about the people around me and can't look at them. If I think about it I can take a notebook next time and write down my thoughts and feelings cuz I really can't remember that right now, but for sure the other people make me feel real uncomfortable for some reason.