A random thought. I feel like I'm coming forward with more unusual behaviours since realising I'm autistic or being suggested that by the therapist.
I need to take the underground train during busy hours. My thought: the air is going to be stuffy and smelly. Next thought: I still have some FFP-2 masks (they filter smells and some germs). I don't think I would do that some time ago. I think I would do nothing and have a meltdown. I was taught that if there is something bothering me, I should push through and try harder. Or... to not do things that might seem weird. I guess it's weird to wear a mask these days.
My therapist reacts in a completely normal manner to statements such as "this smell makes me suffocate". And he lately called that masking if you're suffocating and try very hard to seem like you're not. That is unusual to me, but it's nice to be treated seriously and not being told I'm making it up or trying to attract attention, because I can't possibly suffocate from e.g. fumes and if I'm covering my mouth and nose, I'm also creating drama.
I need to take the underground train during busy hours. My thought: the air is going to be stuffy and smelly. Next thought: I still have some FFP-2 masks (they filter smells and some germs). I don't think I would do that some time ago. I think I would do nothing and have a meltdown. I was taught that if there is something bothering me, I should push through and try harder. Or... to not do things that might seem weird. I guess it's weird to wear a mask these days.
My therapist reacts in a completely normal manner to statements such as "this smell makes me suffocate". And he lately called that masking if you're suffocating and try very hard to seem like you're not. That is unusual to me, but it's nice to be treated seriously and not being told I'm making it up or trying to attract attention, because I can't possibly suffocate from e.g. fumes and if I'm covering my mouth and nose, I'm also creating drama.