Can someone please tell me if this sounds like I'm just being dramatic, if this is just normal, or if it could be somehow aspie-meltdown related? Maybe something more like pre-melt down? I'm not asking for a diagnosis, but just maybe some clarification from those with more knowledge and experience as to what may be happening to me.
Usually what happens is that I?ll become jittery and tense, and I find it hard to focus. At these times I will get angry too and snap at people. I will sometimes even get to the point where I start yelling and throwing things, although I try to refrain from throwing because I tend to break things I like so yeah?
Usually what I?ll do in these types of situations is that if I?m sitting down I?ll usually start rocking back and forth in my chair, or side to side and I?ll rub my legs/arms/wring hands. I didn?t know I did these things until very recently, but now I?ve noticed I?ll do them every time I become distressed about something.
Anyways, at this point usually they only thing I want to do is go home and go upstairs to my nice quite, dark, cold room, and get completely under the covers, head and all. Or, sometimes if it?s dark outside I will drive around in my car blasting the air and my Within Temptation CD. The key here is dark and cold I guess.
Well our AC broke this weekend, and my car air broke too, and it?s over 100F outside, and I can?t do any of those things and I feel like I am going literally insane. Like my brain is scattered, I can?t concentrate, and I feel like there is a hysterical monster inside of me trying to erupt and I just feel like crying. I feel like if I could just climb into my nice cold bed and collect myself I would be ok, but I can?t and I feel trapped
What I can?t figure out is if this is normal for a person, or if I am being a wimp/dramatic, or if it could be something like a melt down? I?m still trying to figure out if I have Asperger?s (but it runs in the family and the more I find out the more things make sense), but I still haven?t figured out this meltdown thing, and I can?t figure out if I experience them. Hopefully someone with more experience and knowledge can help me figure out if this is sounds normal, aspie-like, or like I?m just being a jerk/wimp. Thank you for your input!
Usually what happens is that I?ll become jittery and tense, and I find it hard to focus. At these times I will get angry too and snap at people. I will sometimes even get to the point where I start yelling and throwing things, although I try to refrain from throwing because I tend to break things I like so yeah?
Usually what I?ll do in these types of situations is that if I?m sitting down I?ll usually start rocking back and forth in my chair, or side to side and I?ll rub my legs/arms/wring hands. I didn?t know I did these things until very recently, but now I?ve noticed I?ll do them every time I become distressed about something.
Anyways, at this point usually they only thing I want to do is go home and go upstairs to my nice quite, dark, cold room, and get completely under the covers, head and all. Or, sometimes if it?s dark outside I will drive around in my car blasting the air and my Within Temptation CD. The key here is dark and cold I guess.
Well our AC broke this weekend, and my car air broke too, and it?s over 100F outside, and I can?t do any of those things and I feel like I am going literally insane. Like my brain is scattered, I can?t concentrate, and I feel like there is a hysterical monster inside of me trying to erupt and I just feel like crying. I feel like if I could just climb into my nice cold bed and collect myself I would be ok, but I can?t and I feel trapped
What I can?t figure out is if this is normal for a person, or if I am being a wimp/dramatic, or if it could be something like a melt down? I?m still trying to figure out if I have Asperger?s (but it runs in the family and the more I find out the more things make sense), but I still haven?t figured out this meltdown thing, and I can?t figure out if I experience them. Hopefully someone with more experience and knowledge can help me figure out if this is sounds normal, aspie-like, or like I?m just being a jerk/wimp. Thank you for your input!
