Diagnosed with aspergers

[ThDude]

As my title reads I have been diagnosed with aspergers officially. In the scoring I was ranked As high mother skilled but low social skills, in words my parents said "you don't think right".

Anyway I'm ThDude, a name I gave myself on forums in attempts to have some sort of cool factor given to me as I can't gain much by any other means. Night walker was a second option but I don't think I would have liked it.

Anyway it was back in November when I finally found out I have AS, and well no ones explained what I do now really. No more doctors appointments have been made with the shrink and I have pretty much been thrown out into the world with no help.

All my life I have had "bad manners" and been a wild child of sorts. My parents would punish my actions all the time and eventually I just had shut downs. I mean they were telling me I was being bad when I didn't know why what I was doing was bad.

Of by the way my parents homeschooled me all my life so I have no idea about kids my age or how to act like one, long story

In reality my actors were that of most kids with aspies, I couldn't really help it and when I messed up I got punished.

So now I'm almost 18 and I have had a job for over a year and now I am taking some college classes.

Up untill now I acted as normal as I could and just told myself I needed to learn how to act right. Then I found out its not something that can be corrected just like that. It's a part of me and it's how my brain works.

So never before have I had sensory overload or many other aspie related things happen untill this past month. It's like now I know it's not my fault and everything's coming out at once, look out world the flood gates are gone.

I am really lost and I just need to get things worked out, I'm young and I have no social outlets as I'm homeschooled. I have made no real friends or connections, I'm alone. I don't want to be alone anymore.

 

[2010Dolby]

Hey man. Or dude. Whichever you go buy. Nevermind, Im gonna call you 'Vette anyway :lol:

 

[ThDude]

Hey if I can be related to a super car like the vette then call me vette!

 

[drisina]

Hi ThDude,
I to have found myself left out in the cold since my diagnosis. Where do we go from here? Sometimes I wish there was a map everywhere with a star telling you, "you are here", so I could find my way. It is really hard to deal with "normal" people who think that just because you don't yell and scream that you don't have strong feelings. It would be much easier to organise into their proper cubby and find some other distraction to focus on.
I went to 126 schools from kindergarten to sixth grade so I know what its like not to know how to interact like "normal" people.
Maybe aspies will repopulate the earth and everyone will want to know how come "a man walked into a bar and said 'ouch'" is funny.
drisina

 

[blur]

Can you join a course that you enjoy? I m sure that you excel in something that you enjoy. What about language or a skill? If you can do well, nts will flood to you. They will try to be nice to you coz they probably wish to learn your secret of doing well. ( Maybe dont tell them abt yr AS). Then you have a better chance of trying to blend in when they want something from you. You will appear as a genius to them.

From my own experience, others will most likely look at us as a freak when they know that we have AS. They probably will not want to be near you even. Let alone a shred of understanding or sympathy etc...

U just need to shine in something. They will come to you.

Oh well, this is what i did.
I hope the above helps.

As my title reads I have been diagnosed with aspergers officially. In the scoring I was ranked As high mother skilled but low social skills, in words my parents said "you don't think right".

Anyway I'm ThDude, a name I gave myself on forums in attempts to have some sort of cool factor given to me as I can't gain much by any other means. Night walker was a second option but I don't think I would have liked it.

Anyway it was back in November when I finally found out I have AS, and well no ones explained what I do now really. No more doctors appointments have been made with the shrink and I have pretty much been thrown out into the world with no help.

All my life I have had "bad manners" and been a wild child of sorts. My parents would punish my actions all the time and eventually I just had shut downs. I mean they were telling me I was being bad when I didn't know why what I was doing was bad.

Of by the way my parents homeschooled me all my life so I have no idea about kids my age or how to act like one, long story

In reality my actors were that of most kids with aspies, I couldn't really help it and when I messed up I got punished.

So now I'm almost 18 and I have had a job for over a year and now I am taking some college classes.

Up untill now I acted as normal as I could and just told myself I needed to learn how to act right. Then I found out its not something that can be corrected just like that. It's a part of me and it's how my brain works.

So never before have I had sensory overload or many other aspie related things happen untill this past month. It's like now I know it's not my fault and everything's coming out at once, look out world the flood gates are gone.

I am really lost and I just need to get things worked out, I'm young and I have no social outlets as I'm homeschooled. I have made no real friends or connections, I'm alone. I don't want to be alone anymore.

 

[Bay]

One thing that has helped me is to read as much about it as possible. There are lots of books that can be downloaded onto a Kindle or other device, ordered online, or gotten through your local library (if they don't have what you want you can ask for inter library loans).

The second thing that has helped has been this forum. It is pretty active, the participants are intelligent, and it feels better to see how many people are like me. Everyone seems friendly and supportive. Plus, the admins seem to be pretty good about keeping the trolls out.

The third thing that has helped me sort through all of the issues surrounding AS has been therapy. If you are able to work with a therapist who knows something about it, it can really cut to the heart of the matter more easily than going it all alone. Perhaps the Psychiatrists that provided the diagnosis can recommend someone in your area?

 

[ThDude]

I have been busy, I had not had a chance to reply to this forum in aegis. Now I have a little time so here goes.

@blur I am taking a second language(American sign language) and I'm very good at it however the others in the class are mostly female and "prepy" so I don't get along to well with them(really its the other way around. The other thing is I have gotten all A's in this class, which has turned some people off to me because of the intimidation I think. Most of the people in the class are repeating it from failing and yet I'm passing 100% first try.

On a side note, I find sign language far better then any spoken language. I find it hard to convey an idea or thought in speech but when it comes to signs I can get out every "word"

@bay the person who labeled me as aspergers is the only one in town so far as I know. We will be checking for another person as this one did not act in ways iphe should have. I'm in a small southern town so we dont have to many autism specialists around.

I'm going to find a autism book to read. As soon as I finish the 1994 lt1 corvette Haynes manual read through.

Also is April autism awareness month? I think it is right?