Dimentia and leaving

[Kayla55]

Thought I'd say goodbye....

I have big sign on gate do not enter but I don't have a dog. Today someone came in as I forgot to lock the gate, I figured its a parasitic type of German or unwanted family member so I took the petrol weed eater and removed them with this, I did hear a lot about it but they were trespassing and I didn't attack them as such....I just waved it around.
I suppose I have underlying PTSD issues or dimentia....
I've being so nautious and/or amyloid symptoms so I'm making sure gate is locked as it is a trigger that upsets me.

Thanks for listening to my stuff, I've a lot to deal with as my altzeimers is early and I'm no where near retirement...I suppose I always preferred to cry alone.

 

[Forest Cat]

Are you sure you want to leave? It can be nice to have a place/forum to go to. People are supportive and helpful here.

 

[Ed#]

I suppose I have underlying PTSD issues or dimentia....

Thanks for listening to my stuff, I've a lot to deal with as my altzeimers is early and I'm no where near retirement...I suppose I always preferred to cry alone.

Have you actually been diagnosed with Alzheimers or another form of dementia? I saw your other post earlier, and I was confused as to whether you'd actually been diagnosed or not. It sounded more like you were fishing around for possibilities (as does the first remark). If you're not diagnosed, please don't assume you have dementia.

There's no need to leave, especially if you find this to be a supportive community. Sounds like you've had a rough day. You can take a break for a while if you need to, but you're welcome here.

 

[Rodafina]

Hi, @Kayla55,
Please do what is best for you and take good care.

 

[The Pandector]

I wish that, instead, you had posted a poll to ask if you should go. Then, we’d still have you around.

 

[Kayla55]

I received alert, so just came to reply I've noticed memory loss for ages, I spoke about symptoms on another thread before saying I think I have it.
I woke up ND my eyes are blood-shot, deep veins on sides. My hands hurted at first, it's now joint pain. I think it's protein around brain and I only eat brown rice for long while but I'm switch to barley and soups.

I started changing the logo for world conservation away from a panda, I loved idea of an elephant but I wanted to choose Alaskan token animal. Many were upset but I believe it represents interests of those who's culture never moved away from nature. It's to give some hope to those who need it, in all fairness. Everyone needs to have something and believe in hope. It's a right for all living creatures in this planet to be part eco-system.

People asked if autism increases with age, and I believe it does. For some of us its worse....I'm more anti-social, and definition of boundaries is lost in dimentia and believing some (not all) people are good.
I changed my capsule analysis to define a locust system. It's where a wrong doer has no remorse, if you help them accept help, return to patterns of eating victims alive. I was met with horror, I thought I'd managed my synical outlook. Maybe I just said it in a very straight forward way as opposed to wording clever or getting a thesaurus.
I sent my capsule thesis to everyone I know and hated and thanked them for this insight and life skills I needed and for making me a minimal success (independent but never doing anything amazing)

So I don't see the good in people, anymore but this isn't everyone, mostly NT.

 

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@Kayla55

When's the last time you were seen by a medical professional?
Had an appointment with a doctor or psychiatrist?

 

[Mary Terry]

@Kayla55 - Chasing people away by waving a weed eater at them may land you in jail or involuntarily committed to a mental hospital. If you think someone is trespassing, just call the police to deal with it.

 

[Ed#]

I received alert, so just came to reply I've noticed memory loss for ages, I spoke about symptoms on another thread before saying I think I have it.

Sounds to me like you need to see a doctor. It's really not a good idea to self-diagnose dementia. There are many other potential causes for memory problems. Please see a medical professional before concluding that you have Alzheimers.

 

[Kayla55]

@Kayla55

When's the last time you were seen by a medical professional?
Had an appointment with a doctor or psychiatrist?

No, never diagnosed, preferred not to get attention. I should go to doc as may be a vital organ too. Doctors were always hopeless, I had Xray as child for pain in my ribs but couldn't find anything. This time they may. I dislike doctor visit.

There is so much going on with regards to asd being enough of a reason to be family freak without still having confusion of cultural differences and until I heard Luca say she was Indian, I always kept quiet. My Hungarian family accept me as just who I am, they cool but my dad doesn't realise I'm a child from mixed background so I'm confused on my identity and asd exacerbates this.
It's clearly obvious I cook 2 seperate meals, one that I eat and another for my children. For some people they desire beauty and for me it was never about this, I can't help that some of things I feel are more intense. Sometimes I think it's best to keep to own culture as you leave this confusion with kids.

 

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@Kayla55

Yes, I believe you're correct that you should go to a doctor.

Speak to the doctor about your concerns.