Do you ever just feel really sad and alone...

[lovely_darlingprettybaby]

And unwanted and like everyone would feel better if you just disappeared and there is nowhere you belong at all?
I do despite missing certain family members, I just feel sad and unwanted.
And wonder if I made any difference at all in being alive or whether anyone will ever be nice to me and repay me for my kindness towards them.

 

[AprilR]

Yes i feel like this all the time.ı am sorry you do too.

 

[lovely_darlingprettybaby]

Yes i feel like this all the time.ı am sorry you do too.

Sorry. Hugsxoxo
Do not understand why it is so difficult =\

 

[Luca]

Sorry you're feeling so alone right now. I can relate. Sometimes I even feel alone when I'm not physically alone, if that makes sense.

 

[ra49]

And unwanted and like everyone would feel better if you just disappeared and there is nowhere you belong at all?
I do despite missing certain family members, I just feel sad and unwanted.
And wonder if I made any difference at all in being alive or whether anyone will ever be nice to me and repay me for my kindness towards them.

Sorry, Dear Girl that you feel this way

But have to say Yes for me as well: almost every moment of my entire life, like background music or the constant tinnitus in my ears, that singular solitary sorrowful alone rock weighs in my heart.

 

[Kisa the tea]

I can absolutely relate to this. Sorry you're feeling it too.

 

[Human Avatar]

Yes everyday

 

[Masked Man]

First I'd like to say I'm sorry you're feeling that way. Feeling alone can be hard.

I think what helps me is knowing, on a macro scale, no, I really don't matter. My life will be fleeting (in relative terms) and I will be forgotten. What I do, on the macro scale, doesn't matter.

What does matter is what I can do on the smaller, day to day, scale. How I interact with others can make their lives better in some small way.

For example, I went to a store recently to buy something. As I was checking out, the cashier was trying to upsell a rewards card. I'm not interested in a rewards card and I declined. But I was polite about it because I know that is part of their job and they are required by management to do this. I also complimented the cashier on her bracelet and said it was a nice color.

When she finished the sale, she gave me the receipt and said "thank you for being nice."

I think the least I can do is to not make other people's lives even more miserable. So I try to be nice.

 

[WhitewaterWoman]

I am feeling very sad and alone now.

 

[Ame568]

Yep, I feel like this a lot...pretty much all the time. I hate that others feel like this, I wish I could take the pain away from them (this includes you thread starter).

 

[Midnights11]

I can relate. I feel like a lot of people try to shut me down for simply having harmless opinions. This lyric from Taylor Swift reminds me we’re just living in a neurotypical’s world, “You’re on your own kid. You always have been”

 

[Shamar]

And unwanted and like everyone would feel better if you just disappeared and there is nowhere you belong at all?
I do despite missing certain family members, I just feel sad and unwanted.
And wonder if I made any difference at all in being alive or whether anyone will ever be nice to me and repay me for my kindness towards them.

Constantly. I have always been rejected by other people (apparently I come across as weird or disturbing). I can't say I miss friendship, because I have never had friends, but I desperately want friendship and love. It goes both ways. I feel nothing for people I should be close to. When my father died, nothing. When my mother died, nothing. I have a wife and son, and while I feel a moral obligation to them, if they disappeared in a puff of smoke I would hardly feel anything. Did my being alive make any difference? I like to think so. I invented new analytical and techniques and instrumentation, made a few resource discoveries. As a museum docent, I gave a lot of talks to school classes. Will I ever be a part of society, find love or even like? I don't know. At age 71, I sort of doubt it.

Just remember, you are not alone in these feelings, we are always here to help and support you.

 

[lovely_darlingprettybaby]

Constantly. I have always been rejected by other people (apparently I come across as weird or disturbing). I can't say I miss friendship, because I have never had friends, but I desperately want friendship and love. I goes both ways. I feel nothing for people I should be close to. When my father died, nothing. When my mother died, nothing. I have a wife and son, and while I feel a moral obligation to them, if they disappeared in a puff of smoke I would hardly feel anything. Did my being alive make any difference? I like to think so. I invented new analytical and techniques and instrumentation, made a few resource discoveries. As a museum docent, I gave a lot of talks to school classes. Will I ever be a part of society, find love or even like? I don't know. At age 71, I sort of doubt it.

Just remember, you are not alone in these feelings, we are always here to help and support you.

Thank you. I actually see it a bit different and that is I love my dad and feel relatively close to him as well as the rest of my family particularly my brother and my niece. But I am very affectionate and miss a close mother/daughter connection. Women have really disappointed me and the lack of support and affection from them is hard for me.
I am very loving person and the way it has been with no support has climbed over my head. I need people there for me and am not very friend orientated but feel closer to family.
It is not like I would not want friends.
But it is easier to feel affectionate with family and I have really struggled without the guidance from family. But I still feel close to some of them.
I cannot see a life where things are pointless. I have to see a life where it has some meaning and value
I am soft on myself, if I cannot understand something I cannot and I do not need to be myself as an autistic but some things I really cannot understand and they torment me. I just want to understand it and it be good.
And I cannot feel like loneliness or having a need is my fault even if it ends up hurting others, they would just need to find forgiveness and understanding no matter how bad it hurts them and wait for restoration.
Because they made the choice as well when I am really unwell and vulnerable.
If I love someone in a platonic way and that is how I generally feel how am I hurting others but seriously I can fit no box to fit in with others and that hurts because I want to be happy.
And people who.love me for me will not expect me to box sit.
I am sick of being hurt like this as an autistic, it is breaking my heart.

 

[lovely_darlingprettybaby]

I can relate. I feel like a lot of people try to shut me down for simply having harmless opinions. This lyric from Taylor Swift reminds me we’re just living in a neurotypical’s world, “You’re on your own kid. You always have been”

Yeah people are stupid.
I like independence but yeah I need people, support amd affection

 

[lovely_darlingprettybaby]

Yep, I feel like this a lot...pretty much all the time. I hate that others feel like this, I wish I could take the pain away from them (this includes you thread starter).

Yeah it is a suckky world and I also don't like seeing people lonely without the support they need
Seems so sad and makes me think it is not worth it.

 

[lovely_darlingprettybaby]

First I'd like to say I'm sorry you're feeling that way. Feeling alone can be hard.

I think what helps me is knowing, on a macro scale, no, I really don't matter. My life will be fleeting (in relative terms) and I will be forgotten. What I do, on the macro scale, doesn't matter.

What does matter is what I can do on the smaller, day to day, scale. How I interact with others can make their lives better in some small way.

For example, I went to a store recently to buy something. As I was checking out, the cashier was trying to upsell a rewards card. I'm not interested in a rewards card and I declined. But I was polite about it because I know that is part of their job and they are required by management to do this. I also complimented the cashier on her bracelet and said it was a nice color.

When she finished the sale, she gave me the receipt and said "thank you for being nice."

I think the least I can do is to not make other people's lives even more miserable. So I try to be nice.

You are amazing. That matters you know, small acts of kindness.
We cannot do it all but we can do something small for someone else and it makes a difference in their life.
You may be forgotten as you say but God will not forget you.
You matter and are worthwhile and valuable even in the kindness you show.
You matter to me even if I am not your bestie or may not talk to u again.

 

[AndyFBlues]

I feel that way a lot. For some reason, these emotions are often strongest at night as I'm going to bed.