Since about 7th grade I have been in the work force doing different jobs,never knew I had autism till 3 years ago. I have always had to work extra hard and was often tired after work didn't realize I was doing a thing called masking. Anyway the point of the rambling is once I embraced my autism and got a job coach it's been mentally hard for me to get out of masking.
For example at work I have 3 soda coolers to fill which most people may only take a hour but embracing the autism and forcing myself to slow down it takes me a hour to fill one cooler and even though I say I can move faster and feel like I am failing I have to remind myself I don't need to mask anymore and it's better health and mental wise to go at the pace I am physically comfortable more than mentally. If that rambling makes sense.
For example at work I have 3 soda coolers to fill which most people may only take a hour but embracing the autism and forcing myself to slow down it takes me a hour to fill one cooler and even though I say I can move faster and feel like I am failing I have to remind myself I don't need to mask anymore and it's better health and mental wise to go at the pace I am physically comfortable more than mentally. If that rambling makes sense.