Archer36
Well-Known Member
Hi all,
This morning before going to work, I had this very minor situation that made me wonder if other aspies were experiencing the same.
I put on my shirt and while i was buttoning it, I heard a little "scritchscritch" noise ... My first thought was that a little animal or a "monster" was in the room next to me ... it got me anxious ... and realized that it was just the label/tag inside my shirt that was rubbing on my belt.
Okay, this is a very simple example. But I'm always like that. I'm scared of everything for no reason. When I was kid, I always slept under my blanket, head included, because I was constantly in fear of the dark and all the monsters that were surrounding me. I was terrorized. Then when I was teenager, it wasn't much better ... Then in my 20s, I had enormous anxiety problems ... then a few panic attacks.
Today, at 36yo, the fears are still very present, but I control myself pretty well most of the time. But still ... I fear everything all the time like a traumatized cat. It's causing a lot of stress and anxiety regularly. When I go to bed, i turn off the light ... and I hurry up to climb on my bed cause I fear something would grab my feet. The more tired I am, the worse it is.
So what is your experience with that?
And do you think it might be aspie related? I'm very sensitive to noise. Why are the irrational thoughts/imagination come up before the obvious? Is it possible that my fear of the dark and monsters traumatized me as a child? My parents weren't the kind that I could go see in the middle of the night to be protected from the monsters so I had no other protection than hiding under my blankets with my stuffed animal.
This morning before going to work, I had this very minor situation that made me wonder if other aspies were experiencing the same.
I put on my shirt and while i was buttoning it, I heard a little "scritchscritch" noise ... My first thought was that a little animal or a "monster" was in the room next to me ... it got me anxious ... and realized that it was just the label/tag inside my shirt that was rubbing on my belt.
Okay, this is a very simple example. But I'm always like that. I'm scared of everything for no reason. When I was kid, I always slept under my blanket, head included, because I was constantly in fear of the dark and all the monsters that were surrounding me. I was terrorized. Then when I was teenager, it wasn't much better ... Then in my 20s, I had enormous anxiety problems ... then a few panic attacks.
Today, at 36yo, the fears are still very present, but I control myself pretty well most of the time. But still ... I fear everything all the time like a traumatized cat. It's causing a lot of stress and anxiety regularly. When I go to bed, i turn off the light ... and I hurry up to climb on my bed cause I fear something would grab my feet. The more tired I am, the worse it is.
So what is your experience with that?
And do you think it might be aspie related? I'm very sensitive to noise. Why are the irrational thoughts/imagination come up before the obvious? Is it possible that my fear of the dark and monsters traumatized me as a child? My parents weren't the kind that I could go see in the middle of the night to be protected from the monsters so I had no other protection than hiding under my blankets with my stuffed animal.
