Fed up with my classes...

[Ameriblush]

I'm an aspie attending university...and holy jesus, I cannot my head together. I wake up every morning feeling like a confused mess with my mind feeling similar to the "computer with too many tabs open", analogy. It feels like a slog going to class and the class after that, to the point where I would wake up and attend classes in my night clothes without freshening up.

When I do show up, I end up falling asleep or purposefully daydreaming if the class doesn't catch my interest, and I feel just plain lazy. I want to succeed, but I feel like I'm destined to fail two classes that I feel like are a waste of my life! I end up putting more effort into activities such as drawing, video editing, and music creation, but my main passion is supposed to be coding.

It's something I really want to do, especially with it's high salary, but I've just been so absorbed into my artsy stuff lately, I worry about what I really want to do with my life.

Basically, I'm struggling trying to figure out what I really want to do in life, whether I'm meant to be an independent adult, and whether I'm suffering from issues or just being lazy. Anyone else in higher education struggling with this?

 

[Judge]

I can only tell you that in my own case, the further I got towards a degree, the more burned out I became.

I graduated many years ago at a time when the economy was in a shambles and no one was hiring much. I decided to get certified as a paralegal because I know I could find work in the field. But after a week of attempting to study in a specialized one year program, I discovered that I just couldn't do it any more. Not one more book, class or grade to consider. I was officially burned out. Eventually I did find work and later a career. Though nothing panned out the way I wanted- or expected.

And it's not a crime to question whether you should be in a university at all. If I had my way again, I would have probably opted for vocational training right out of high school. Not everyone is meant for higher education. It's tough!

 

[dragoncat16]

Why have you signed up for classes that don't interest you? If they are required as part of your degree program, then the only thing I could say is that you could keep your attention up by consciously taking notes during the lectures.

Lots of people lose interest while sitting through lectures, not just aspies. Sometimes the subject matter is boring and sometimes it's the lecturer. It's understandable that you might want to spend your time doing something else, but the semester is only so many weeks long and then you'll be done and free to do what you want. You did sign up for the classes so you should do your best to follow through, as you don't want to have to repeat them.

I had similar issues when I was taking my physics degree and I really wanted to be a musician. I ended up taking a music degree afterwards, and now both areas of interest are parts of my life. I am glad that I gritted my teeth and got through my semesters, even the boring classes.

 

[watersprite]

Years ago I burned out at school while in an angineering drafting degree progrsm. I tried and I did well... but it was deadly boring. It made me feel bad, and everything in life seemed messed up for a while.

Switched majors and that made all the difference.

Make sure you're eating right & sleeping enough - that was one of my lessons while a student.

I hope you find the right course of action.

 

[Beguiling Orbit]

It took 4 attempts to earn my degree, but I finally was in the right frame of mind to succeed when I went back to college at age 42! Do you have a deliberate strategy and a robust support network in place to help you succeed at school, @Ameriblush? If not, or if you want to further explore some options, here are some tips to help you do that.

 

[Ameriblush]

Thanks for all of the kind answers, everybody! I'll continue trying to work through my faults, and every answer has been somewhat motivational so far. ☺
To answer some questions above, they are required classes, and I was reconsidering college altogether, maybe I was meant for online courses or a tech school. Interestingly, I'm passing my online courses with flying colors, but the regular, physical ones are the toughest.