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[Michael B]

I just turned 24 today I feel like I'm triple that age and I'm such a miserable, miserable old idot. I feel like committing suicide because of the problems I have if you don't get the attention you want such as girls you like then what's the point of living. Problem is with me is that I'm to opseced with video games, can't accept the world changing, most of my friends are not local and I'm weird and not gifted looking. I want to be normal again just like when I was a kid back then I didn't give a s**t about these issues. I want to be reborn in a different world when everything is perfect for me. The only way to end this nightmare is to have my own place with the girl who I deserve and starting to have my own family then none of this c**p will bother me ever again then I will be normal once again :'(

 

[Ereth]

First of all, happy birthday.

Unfortunately, no such "perfect world" exists for anyone. Even if you do settle down with a good woman and have a family, I assure you that it's no automatic guarantee of happiness. Happiness, in my mind, is not a state automatically granted to someone once a person reaches a certain socioeconomic status or whatever. It's about recognizing what's important in one's life and not taking it for granted.

Please don't belittle yourself. I highly recommend you seek counseling.

 

[GallacticGorilla]

I know this is a cliché thing to say, but it will get better. circumstances are constantly changing and evolving. I wish i was your age again. I would get my ass in gear and accomplish alot more than I did.

Life is full of ups and downs. Hang in there. I promise it wont be like this forever. Im not saying it will be perfect, but circumstances change.

Ride that wave of Melancholia all the way to happiness. Advice I really need to hear myself.

One more thing. Having a therapist has helped me soo much more than I ever thought it would. There is programs for mental health assistance.

 

[tlc]

I know what you mean, I felt the same way 15 years ago. Exactly.

Since then I've had my share of marriages and relationships and they're not all they're cracked up to be. Trying to be happy is twice as hard when you've got someone else to try to keep happy. First time I got an amazing daughter out of it, but the continual court battles and other hassle I wouldn't wish on anybody. Second time was 8 years wasted and nothing to show for it but age and a drained bank account.

Looking back I see how I accomplished so much more alone. It will take some time, but you can be happy alone and doing the things that you want, on your free time. Just hang in there.

 

[Turk]

Hi Michael, happy birthday champ. The nirvana you seek, doesnt really exist. Ive been married for 24 years, to someone, I deem as my soul mate. It has stretched me in so many different directions, that I often question my choices. We all have delusions, that relationships, will keep us well adjusted, and from despairs door. This couldn't be further than the truth. As Aspie's, relationships are one of the hardest challenges, we face. You need to first find peace in yourself, before inviting someone into your world. Expect nothing and then reap the rewards of a humble life.

 

[Michael B]

Thanks for the reply guys really appreciate it. That does make me feel better but I don't know if it's a good idea to pretend I am with one whenever I go out. I like nonfiction and fiction girls such as Anime girls. Nothing wrong about that might make me weird but that is what makes me happy I guess. With my dad's side of the family we don't really see them that much and not local apart from nan. But with mum's side family its different there's a lot more members we see them a lot more and get on with them lot more. I was with them a lot back when I had the school holidays and the only cousin's I see are my 2 little cousin's at mum's side of the family. When I have my own children whenever that will be. I want them to have the life I didn't have and it will great if they see there cousin's a lot if my brother has his own to.