feeling kinda lonely

[paloftoon]

I feel kinda lonely with all these bad boyfriend options.

It makes me revert back to my one good match a bit

I've been through a lot of self discovery these past 9 months or so. How an overabundance of negativity through childhood and job experiences (and layered with being told I'm not open enough to people or that if I didn't make a decision I would not have to deal with this situation now), and how to think about how to proper deal with it all. Simply the idea of being aware of myself of who I am as a person, and that I need to consider actions more possibly before "reacting" to respect those I am with. At the same time, providing that balance where if someone purposely wrongs me, that I know how to stand up for myself.

 

[Momo]

Learning how to stand up for yourself is a good thing, as for the feeling lonely part, welcome to the lonely people club! Dating is hard...

 

[SusanLR]

Welcome lonely!
I've always been told to get out there and start interacting with people. It will take away that empty feeling. Well, it doesn't. Not for me anyway. Sometimes it is very lonely with just me, myself and I. But, if being with others causes anxiety, and the feeling I have to act to be accepted...such is life. I'm learning.

 

[paloftoon]

Well my issues were actually not so much with not putting myself out there enough. It was understanding that there were some moments I needed to stand up for myself, a few crucial moments where I had to understand how to respect another person's feelings more and communicate better, and realizing that much of the negativity occurring where really things not under my control but that I had to deal with. Like if you have to deal with issues related to not getting paid from two jobs at the same time, layered with being told that if I didn't switch to this new job, that I would not be in this situation and all, is depressing. I even transitioned into the new job properly- didn't quit my old one at all, the new one was a promotion, and it seemed like an environment I would succeed in and I was right about the environment except that the organization had to shut down. Nothing I did would ever please this particular close family member unless I lived her life, which I could never do even if I wanted to.