Cogs Of My Cranium
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Basically my grandad is on the verge of dying. It's unlikely he will last the week. The cloud of his condition has been hanging over the family for two years now as well as the crippling costs of his care and his eventual funeral. Mainly this cloud is on my dad who suffers great financial pressure and drinks like a bottle of wine every night.
I've spent a lot of my life worrying and being sad. It's moments like this where something genuinely is happening in reality. I'm obviously worried/scared about change but I also think like I'm feeling the pain of my dad. I feel powerless over the inevitability of it all. I also feel guilty that I can't help. I'm now in my early 30s and my parents are in their early 60s. I feel like the family is struggling to continue under these pressures. I don't want my dad having some kind of a breakdown over it all.
It's like a storm coming you know. I just wanted to write something down somewhere.
I've spent a lot of my life worrying and being sad. It's moments like this where something genuinely is happening in reality. I'm obviously worried/scared about change but I also think like I'm feeling the pain of my dad. I feel powerless over the inevitability of it all. I also feel guilty that I can't help. I'm now in my early 30s and my parents are in their early 60s. I feel like the family is struggling to continue under these pressures. I don't want my dad having some kind of a breakdown over it all.
It's like a storm coming you know. I just wanted to write something down somewhere.
