Italianbratxoxo
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I’m a 31 year old woman who got diagnosed later in life. I never had friends growing up and even when I did have friends they would bully me. I go through these phases where I would have a ton of friends and end up with no one. I guess you can say have friends now but maybe I say they’re my friends out of loneliness and just scared of being alone for the rest of my life. My cousins won’t even talk to me anymore. I know I did them wrong but I was hurting myself and I have grown from that. I don’t even want to talk about what I did. But my cousin has hurt me too so I got revenge on her. I feel unloved despite having people around me. I’m just not used to people caring for me. I used to live in a state in the US where people are very mean and nasty. If you’re different they’ll crucify you and bully you to no end. Why am I feeling like I don’t deserve the love I have now?
