I really don't think this is in the correct place and please move it, if it is the wrong place.
So basically so much has been happening recently and I've been under a huge amount of stress, School, Exams and things but that's not the problem. My friend that i care about most is ill and so many people i care about our lets just say not so happy. I'm stressed, and my friends take the mick of me and people i care about maybe they just think its funny but it does get to me. maybe i shouldn't let it but i can't help so i said one thing back to one of them and now all my friends have stopped doing things with me talking to me playing games with me everything just stops but now all i get is them being horrible all the time. I don't know what to do, the people i care about are slipping away from me. I feel lonely and I don't know what to do, i just wonder anyone experiences similar, can anyone relate. I know I'm a bad person but nothing i can do.
Was that a typo or do you really think you're a bad person??? Sounds like you're a good person who's productive and cares about people.
Something pretty similar happened with my friends 2 years ago. One thing went wrong and all of a sudden everyone stopped talking to me. I was working hard, saving money and trying to accomplish some goals like getting my first apartment and car. I was crushed and miserable for months.
When I feel like I've hurt someone I over analyze every little thing I possible can and try to figure out what I did wrong and what I could've done differently. It really puts me in a different place emotionally, like it just tears me down.
The next year I ran into on of those so-called friends and he said that the rest of them felt as though I don't care about them and that I'm selfish. He said when I want to do something I expect them all to show up but when they invite me I don't show up enough. I couldn't believe it. All those months from one year to the next I was thinking this was over something terrible but no it was over stupidity and a lack of common sense. I was working mon-fri 3-11pm at the time. And everything they planned was always on a weeknight when they knew I couldn't show up. Everything I planned was always on the weekend so that everyone would be able to make it because I knew we all had weekends off. This had been previously discussed somewhat.
We'll excuse me for wanting to have a good work ethic and not call in sick just because someone's throwing a party or wants to get wasted at a bar. Excuse me for having goals and being responsible. Whenever they had a weekend get together I showed up. Whenever it was a friends birthday, I requested the night off from work because that was actually important. But random party nights, that's not worth me missing the money when you can just as easily plan it for a Saturday.
The point is that this specific group of ppl were selfish and there were signs of it already but I was somewhat blind to it until it completely smacked me in the face. Once u realized this I got over my emotions and refused to give a ****. Moved on with my life and never looked back. Losers will need me before I ever need them.
I'm sure you probably are a good person and you need to figure out if these ppl are really your friends because it doesn't sound like they are. Making you miserable, laughing at you and treating you badly doesn't sound like a friend to me. I'm a lot lonelier than I used to be years ago. I've lost a lot of fake friends, real genuine friends have moved on with their lives and started families and I'm practically all alone because I can't make any relationships last due to my emotional problems but I'd rather hold out for the real ppl than surround myself with the fake ones just to feel like I'm apart of something. If it turns out that they're not your real friends, trust me you're better off letting them go.
P.S. Though I've lost some "friends" along the way sticking to my goals has helped me make a new friend here and there. For example, I'm going to school to be an IT technician and I've met some pretty cool ppl in the same field and hung out with them outside of school. So at least I know we already have things in common. Just keep your chin up and I'm sure things will work out for the best.
