Muninn
Well-Known Member
Hi,
My real name is Marianne and I'm 34. Outwardly, I have a successful career and seem sociable and stable, but I've just taught myself how to get through dealing with people (it all feels like a rather exhausting act). I've always had trouble with social interaction, making friends, relationships, etc. I always had the impression that it was my fault and that I just wasn't trying hard enough (or that was the impression others gave me?) After a number of years of being treated for anxiety and still not feeling like I have a handle on things, I stumbled across one of the online Asperger's quizzes and took it just to see (like taking a magazine quiz...you know?). I'll admit that prior, I never really thought much about it...seemed like something people just called themselves as an excuse to be, well, jerks. I was taken off guard when the quiz said I was likely an aspie. That can't be right! Since then, I've been doing research and finding that....actually, it very well could be right. A lot of the little quirky parts of my personality that I never thought about (except when I noticed that I didn't share the quirks with anyone else), the childhood meltdowns, the disturbing adulthood shutdowns...so many other little subtle aspects that suddenly come together when I read about others' experiences. I'd like to pursue this further (officially), but in the meantime, I thought it would be nice to try to connect with other people who would understand what it is like to always feel like they're living a world apart from everyone around them.
Cheers, Marianne
My real name is Marianne and I'm 34. Outwardly, I have a successful career and seem sociable and stable, but I've just taught myself how to get through dealing with people (it all feels like a rather exhausting act). I've always had trouble with social interaction, making friends, relationships, etc. I always had the impression that it was my fault and that I just wasn't trying hard enough (or that was the impression others gave me?) After a number of years of being treated for anxiety and still not feeling like I have a handle on things, I stumbled across one of the online Asperger's quizzes and took it just to see (like taking a magazine quiz...you know?). I'll admit that prior, I never really thought much about it...seemed like something people just called themselves as an excuse to be, well, jerks. I was taken off guard when the quiz said I was likely an aspie. That can't be right! Since then, I've been doing research and finding that....actually, it very well could be right. A lot of the little quirky parts of my personality that I never thought about (except when I noticed that I didn't share the quirks with anyone else), the childhood meltdowns, the disturbing adulthood shutdowns...so many other little subtle aspects that suddenly come together when I read about others' experiences. I'd like to pursue this further (officially), but in the meantime, I thought it would be nice to try to connect with other people who would understand what it is like to always feel like they're living a world apart from everyone around them.
Cheers, Marianne